I have now calmed down. and am feeling better. I know now, what I need to prepare for future interviews with law firms, and what I need to send out along with my resume. So I will be contacting some law firms again.

in other news. I watched an episode of the doors of fear----an egyption series about the paranornormal---it wasn't as scary as I first anticipitated, at least this episode wasn't, so that was a good thing. to be honest I only decided to give it a chance, because I didn't feel like getting up and changing the channel manually---as I still haven't gotten new batteries for the remote---but that's fine with me, I've learned how to cope with the commericals.

Just Annoyed.

Why am I annoyed you ask? I'm anoyed that the person who told me to set up a meeting today, was forty five minutes late-----and here I thought I was late===and then has the audictity to tell me, that, we need a writing example. I'm like what?! you couldn't have told me that via email when you told me to set up an appointment, I figured if it was something that neededd they would have asked for it. so now I'm writing up a writing example, I'll have to modify it later, so I'll have to open my law books, just so i know what each subject talks about. that got me so freaking annoyed, at myself, for not being smart enough to ask if they would need a writing sample, and at them, for not telling me, before the damn meeting that they needed a writing sample. and then he was so vague about it, he's like, "write about anything," So i was thinking fine, you want anything you can read my blog, that's anything, finally, he said, he wanted a paper on the courses i studied in the university, so he can give it to HR for consideration.

relaxed

Last night I went to sleep at twelve thirty in the afternoon, and then I woke up at five in the evening, and then went back to sleep at seven thirty, or eight---I forgot which, and then I went back to sleep and woke up at eleven thirty, at eleven thirty I got a phone call from both my husband and my dad, both telling me that they paid the cell phone bill, which is a good thing, because I really needed it to get paid. Obviously my husband read the emails that I sent him, because he asked about the directions to the interview and I told him, and even added the number, so that he can call them for further directions, because I can't understand directions from these people. The last person that gave me instructions, kept saying, "Localisier mall." What the hell is localiser mall? I saw the mall, but it didn't say localaizer mall.

Thank God, I have an interview for the end of the week. I hope that it will go well. This time I'm going to make sure that I'm completely prepared, meaning I'm going to read everything there is to know about the company---and the cases they handle and what not. Sense I'm probably going to be an admistrative, I probably won't need to know that much about law, except, ifI get hired as a paralegal---which is what I would ideally like to be hired as, anyway, I've already read through the firms website, I'm going to read more about. Not that there's that much to read about, I've noticed that they have firms outside as well. God Willing it will all go well.

The white flower---MBC4

Last night,a guy was going to kill Mustapha---while he was at his place of buisnss, to avenge----Aga Dawood's death, but then Aziz---Mustapha's arch enemy---stopped him, thus saving his life, Aziz---is the one that killed Dawood in the first place, but sense, Mustapha was the last person to be seen with the Aga as he died out, the Aga's men all think that it was Mustapha who had killed him, when actually it was Aziz who'd killed him, and Aziz had killed him because Dawood had plotted to kill Aziz--he was going to send him to pick up some money---but Aziz had sent someone else in his place and that guy wound up getting killed in a car explosion. Now Aziz didn't stop his "Friend" from killing Mustapha because he likes him, no, not at all, Aziz, stopped him, because he has other plans for Mustapha---I think eventually he's going to kidnap his son.

TV

I am now watching daysof our lifes on MBC4---I know I may have mentioned in one of my blogs,either this one, or another blog---that I only watch Turkish Series, but I've changed my mind, I'm going to watch other shows as well. I figure I have a television that works I might as well enjoy it.

right now

I went to sleep at five in the afternoon, cause I was feeling tired and dizzy, and then I woke up at eight---or a little after eight---as they were calling for prayer---and I had every intention on staying up and praying, however, I was feeling very disorented, and ended up bumping into a wall,as I was trying to leave my room, and then I just went right back into a deep sleep, and then I woke up at one in the morning, and the first thing I did was pray, and then I did some editing on the article that I wrote, and wrote another one. Then Fajer called, I prayed, had some fruit, and am thinking of having some home made potato chips, so that I can have enough energy to go on the treadmill, I just finished watching Mork and Mindy---

I worked out for an hour and now I feel good that I burned some of the calories I consumed, I had a bowl of special K, and one potato---cooked in olive oil----and some green salad. I just finished a cup of green tea, I'm plannin on having nine more cups.

Later I'm going to apply to jobs on bayt.com, I figured I'm already sending my resume, which contains my phone number all over the place I might as well start applyin for jobs on that job site, after all that is why i registered over there.

Nothing on the job front yet.

Still nothing on the job front, I'm working on an article for the Radio Station, sense they have a radio show called girl talk, I'm writing an article on plastic surgeory, so that I can send it in, of course I'll need someone to prove read it for me.

Breakfast together,

There are days where I wish my Husband and I could have breakfast together, but then there are times, where I am greatful that we hardly have breakfast together, even though we had made an agreement that we'd have breakfast together, except we never really agreed on a schedule,sure taking a freaking, stress and time managment course, is way more important than having breakfast with your wife. I thougt time management would mean that he would spend a little more time here, but it turns out that I was wrong, as usual, I just feel so annoyed right now. Annoyed because he said he would come yesterday, and never came or called, and annoyed, that he probably won't come today,and if he does, it'll just be the same thing, because he doesn't like going out, because he's never in he freaking mood, well it's not my fault those stupid Morons did what they did, why should I take the blame, why should I be the one to pay the price? I think that it's just unfair, completely unfair, I really hate that, there are times when I wish he would call and invite me out, but no, "I'm not in the mood, I'm too this and I'm too that" Well stop beng a freaking victim and go on with your damn life----it's not the end of the world,there are people who have lost billions of thier own money, and you know what they did, they freaking got up and they strived forward. At times I just don't understand anything, all I know is that I'm tired of being stuck in this apartment all day long, I was thinking of calling or textng my husband and seeing if he can take me to the mall today, that's another thing that annoys me, half of the time he doesn't anwser or reply to his texts. I hate it when he tells me that he's going to come over and then doesn't come or call, and I'm just supposed to guess what happened, and I hate it when he says that I'm going to get something in a week, and the week passes and nothing.

I'm watching--rather listening to Mork and Mindy, while drinking tea, and updating my blogs, sense I have the internet---I'm making it a point to update my blogs everyday---and to just watch---two youtube videos, I'm not watching any videos that are more than ten minutes long, so there are going to be some ANTM episodes that I'm not going to be watching, I started watching Cycle 16---I'm at episode Six----

I have decided to start watching Dawson's creek, because I want to see how it's going to all come together, and I've also decided just now, that I'm going to follow Days of our life. Because of the fashions mostly, that's what I was thinking, when I decided that I would follow this series. My reasons for following a series, has to do with two major things----I think the actors have a good sense of humor, in a mafia based film----such as Wadi of the wolfs----and for the fashion---Noor----and for the good storyline---the white flower---and the romance in, the call of a life time---though, and then, Fawzee's comical self on innocent dreams---I'm always wondering, if Alma and Bader are going to stay together, or if they'll get a divorce. I missed last nights episode----and so I'll have to wait till this afternoon to watch the rerun. if I'm bored, and have nothing else to do, and don't feel like listening to DVDs or tapes----then I'll watch Ezel, in both arabic and Turkish---which at first, I had thought was Farsi---stupid, dull mistake---I know. now I would like to see how that series is going to end. I started watchig Alya, but then got bored of it, because it just doesn't grab my attention, like the aformentioned series grab my attention.

I finally have a job interview for Sunday inshallah , I hope and pray that all will go fine, now if only I could get a hold of my husband so I could tell him. I hope everything is okay. And I hope that everything goes well with my interview, I'm going to practice using word- excel and powerpoint, I've used them all before, and I use word practically everyday---but it's been a long while sense I've tried out all the features. if all goes well inshallah then I'm going to go back to the bank to settle things and to hopefully get my bank account working---by getting a bank card. Cause they haven't sent me my bank card yet.

I'm not sure if this makes any sense whatsoever, and it probably doesn't make any sense,but whenever I see or hear about someone being in pain, or suffering, I feel a sense of pain myself. Perhaps it's empathy? I think it's empathy, it's got to be empathy, images get burned in my mind and they don't go away, which is why I don't want to watch any news or see any videos of people being hanged or tortured, because those images will be running , I really don't know who is backing them up, because someone sure is. anyway, that's not the point, the point is I cannot watch those videos or watch the news, I know that people are being shot, killed, and tortured, watching it unravel on the news isn't going to make any difference, it will only make me sad and deperessed, and even sadder, when told, "No matter how sad you feel,you'll never really understand the pain they're going through," That's right I'll never feel what they are going through, and god forbid if I were to go throw any hardships they wouldn't be able to feel the extent of my pain either.

Once again I'm rereading all of my books, in an attempt to write better stories. No one is replying to any of my posts on FB which is probably best because I'm just rambling on like usual. I just write whatever comes to mind. I haven't heard from any of my brothers in a really long time, they've got thier own lifes now, and I just don't have anything to say to them anymore, espeically one of my brothers, who thinks that he's got all the anwsers. I wish I didn't have such a "weak heart" meaning that I scare easily, and don't like to take risks, in other words I'm not brave, I would like to be brave, and plunge into new tasks without a second thought. I've had my CV sent to a number of different places, but they want my phone number, and I just can't take the plunge and send out my CV with the added mobile number, I know that my husband and I talked about it once before, and he knows that it is needed, and it would make no sense from them to get to me through my brother in laws phone number, and I already have it posted on another website, and he was fine with that, I just don't know, I think I'm going to brave take the plunge and send out my new CV with the new addition, after all, he knows that his friend asked to see my cv, so he can send it out to his contacts. however I want to be on the save side, save side? I'm being ridiculous I've already gone over this with my husband, and I've already stated that I would rather the potentional employers contact me directly.

I love watching Mork and Mindy---I have the two seasons, I don't really like the other seasons, because Mork loses his sense of humour and starts cting normal, anyway, I really like the first two seasons, in one of the episodes Mork gets involved with a club called, Pure Power---they're like the KKK they're against anyone that isn't purely white--anyway---he turns them all into different colors, and then leaves them to sort themselves out, another episode he, picked a number randomly from the phone book and called, "Hi Bob, how's the wife," "Oh you don't know me, I just picked your number from the phone book." Have any of you ever done something like that? call a random number? I personally did that once---the number was out of order====lucky me----thought it would have been funny. I'm watching Monk, on mbc4-- next Men Wanted is coming on, and its going to be the last epsiode I want to see how its all going to come together. Another thing, I watched the last two episodes of Party of Five---I couldn't get the first disc to work, it might work later---I used to like it a lot better---so I don't know if I'm going to get the other seasons. Maybe not, I think it would be a waste.