I want my future children---God willing if I ever have children. Which I have a fear that I won't be able to have children---We all have our fears. Anyway, I would like them have differen names, I'm not saying they have to be strange names but they have to be unique names. I've written a list of potential names I have in my mind. Knowing me, by the time I actually have a baby---probably in the very far future---I won't use any of the names I've chosen. I honestly want to be the one to name the children.

today I woke up at five seventeen, I could have watched the daughters of Adam, but I decided to take a shower instead.

Today I got a pair of nude heels. I usually always buy black heels. But this time I decided that I would get something different. These are the last pair of heels I'm buying--for a while, or till I really and seriously need to get a new pair.

I have found an online law program that is geared toward students with international degrees in law. And sense I have an international degree in law--well the transcript to one----when we took it in, they said that there was something wrong with the Grades---whatever the heck that means. I'm hoping they'll except that. Or I'm just going to send my transcript to the other school, which told me to send in my transcript. I'm hoping that I can solve the problem with this school soon. Whenever I tell them that I have already completed the program I get the same thing, the same response, it's like they only have that one response to send out, so I'm just going to send them the papers that I have--along with an email, and see what happens from there, but first I need to get my scanner fixed.

Books

I'm currently reading the following books:
The woman who attracted money----a book my dad gave me.
Shopaholic and sister.
Twenties girl.
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my favorite book out of the three, is Shopaholic and Sister.
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Twenties girl---is very interesting---especially the parts where the ghost of her great aunt is yelling in peoples ears to get them to do what she wants them to do,
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The woman who attracted money----is okay----though I don't think I would miss it, if I ever lost it, or traded it for another book.
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in bed I enjoy reading Meg Cabbot books.

Alright---I can either send all my papers to the American university of London, and pay extra for a new professor, or I can just send my transcript to MUST university---online. I'm thinking between sending everything to the American university of London, except that I don't have all of the invoices with me, and thus I might end up owning them a lot more than I actually owe them, I'm thinking they ought to have all the paid bills on record. I'm hoping that my dad or mom will find the remainig invoices at home. Becasuse I don't have any of them with me. I rememember seeing them at home. Anyway, I will send what I have--once the scanner is in working order, and I'll see how much I owe, to complete the program and get my degree. Now on the other hand I can start with a Bacholors program--in the other university, but the only downfall is that I don't understand how the program works. But that's something that can be dealt with. The good point of MUST university is everything is done online, while the other university, everything is done offline, but sense I'll be gong through the university directly and not the affilate---so it will probably be online---i'm not sure, if I should complete my course with the American univesity, or if I should start over in a new university---, if i can't find the rest of the invoices I'll just have to pay the difference, or start over in another university.

My televison reciever is getting on my nerves, I cannot channel surf, without it freezing on me. And so I've opted to just keep it on one channel for one half of the day, and then change it to another channel the other half of the day, or sometimes i change it to a third channel---depending on the day, and the time, or a fourth channel, but no more than four channels, because if i change channels more than four times---go through four channels, it'll freeze, i know because i've done it plenty of times and i've gotten the same results----a frozen reciver---which has to be switched on and then switched back again, I really want to get Showtime. I could switch from channel to channel without it freezing, but if not showtime, than at least a different reciver.

Last night was a very nerve recking day. It's been so long sense I inflicted harm on myself, I was in such a fit of range that all I saw was red. I don't like when I get that day. I know that it's not good, I just get so frustraited about everything, I get sick and tired, of making what I need clear, and not getting what I need. Sometimes I think that everybody elses needs matter over my needs, and thatI just have to cater to everybody elses needs, and my needs are rarely ever met.

Even after all of these years, it gets me that my dad was far stricter with me than he's being with my sister. This is how it goes with my family now, my mom can pretty much do whatever she wants to do---within in reason----like for example if she doesn't want to do something--like covering for example she doesn't have to because my dad is not going to make her---because he cares more about her feelings than about doing what's righ, so now sense she doesn't cover---my dad can't use her as an excuse to make my sister cover---that's the excuse my dad would give me, but I was still expected to cover even if my mom wasn't around, whereas my sister is not expected to cover, even when my mom is around---of course that's because my mom doesn't cover. At times I wish I had the same freedoms that my mom and sister have---not that I would nessiarly take them, but to do know that you have them is a good feeling.

The Pact: by Jodi Picoult

The pact is a love story about a girl named Emily and a boy named Chris. Emily and Chris grew up together, thier families were next door neighbors, they spent a lot of time in each other's homes so that it was only natural that they became an item. Emily had her reservations about dating Chris because she thought of him as her brother,but Chris loved Emily, and Emily knowing that her breaking up with Chris would break his heart, didn't break up with him.However when she found out that she was pregnant with his baby, she knew that her only option was to either marry him, because that's what he'd want to do if he knew about the baby or have an abortion and not tell him. One day she decided to end it all, and had turned to Chris for help. Chris helped her,but at the last minute he grabbed the gun from her hand, because he couldn't stand to watch her, throw her life away,but Emily had already made up her mind, she forced Chris to shoot her in the head, she grabbed his gun holding hand and pressed it to her head, and with her hand over his she pulled the trigger, shortly after Chris fainted, and before he knew it he was being hauled off to the ER, a short while later, he was arrested till his hearing. Emily's mother accused Chris for her daughters death, while Emily's father, did not blame him. He supported his mother in getting him out of prison and proving his innonce, which they finally do at the end of the story. However after everything is over, the family are no longer close friends.

Sometimes when I can't think of anything I need to do around the home. I lay down in bed and read, and read, till I've finished the entire book, no matter how long the book is. Or sometimes, I'll open up a work document--usually one of my work in progress stories and I'll start writing till I can't think of anything more to write. Or sometimes, I just sit and think, till, something pulls me out of my thoughts, usually the call to prayer,or my cell phon ringing. When you spend most of your time at home, you have to think of ways to entertain yourself, to keep yourself occupied.

I haven't watched any of my DVDs in a really long time. If I can't find anything interesting to watch on television I'm going to watch I love Lucy. Season, three, anyway, I've decided that I'll just watch, the orphan series on wensday, because they play all the episodes of the week then. Sense I prefer the turkish series over the kuwaity series. there was a time when I only watched only arabic series--as in series that are orginally in arabic.

On my mind 4

If money wasn't a issue, and I was given the choice, to either register in a club, or move into a compound. I would rather move into a compound. Because I'm not depending on anyone to take me to go visit my neighbors like I would be depending on someone to take me to the club. I don't like it when people tell me that I need to be more social. It's not like I'm choosing not to be social, I want to be social. But it's not like I can just walk out of my apartment and be social.

difficulties

Everybody goes through difficult times in thier lifes. They may not be as difficult as other people's difficulties, but they are difficulties nonetheless. I find it a complete waste of them comparing each others difficulties, nobody wins that argument.

it's almost ten am, according to the clock on my laptop. By almost I mean six minutes to ten. thought the time realy doesn't matter. Because whether it's am or pm, I know where I'll be, at home. Home, home, home. Honestly I'm getting sick and tired of staying home twenty four seven. And to scared to ask to go out, because like I said in my post, in my previous blog, I don't want to hear another lecture. So I just spend the majority of my time, either reading or watching series. After all a person's got to entertain themselvs, right?

I have a turkish series playing in the background. I've come to enjoy watching turkish series these past few weeks. Ever sense I got into watching Jawahar, and the other series I used to watch on Mbc drama. I have my translations to the left, and so far, I've translated a good number of paragraphs. it makes it easier that I don't have to translate word by word, or else it would take a lot longer.

Today I want to finish reading the Twelveth card, Sleeping Doll and Size 12 is not fat. I still have a long way to go with Gone with the wind. But then again it's a really long book, so it's understandable. anyway, that's all I've got to say.

I've been doing a lot of translating lately. Which is good, because that way I'll have them finished faster. Though I don't know if my translations are going to be up to par, the papers weren't exactly written in the best of english, I mean they are understandable, but very weakly written, and that can effect the translations. Anyway, I'm not translating word for word I'm translating the meaning of the sentence. So that makes it easier and faster for me to translate. That reminds me, I haven't asked my dad about my previous translations, I doubt that he's taken them to the people yet. They're probably still in Bahrain. Anyway, there's some papers I need him to send over here, so I'll send him a message later.

the translating is going good so far. There's a lot of papers to go through, but that's fine, it gives me something to fill my time.

I found a new favorite channel----Abdubi Drama---I have a lot of arabic series I follow on that channel, some new ones, some old ones, that I'm refollowing.

I finally got a vacuum cleaner--meaning I now have a easier time keeping my floors clean. I also got a microwave, but I haven't plugged it in yet. Anyway, the vacuum cleaners, blue and gray---a stand up. I've never used a stand up vacuum cleaner before, my mom used a stand up vacuume cleaner when I was little, but I don't remember I ever used it. It's an American one, and it's filter can be cleaned in liue of being replaced by another filter. When I first plugged it in the outlet, it didn't work, so I thought there must be something wrong with the vacuum cleaner, than I tried it in another outlet, and it worked, so the problem is with the first outlet-but it's weird because I'd just been using it for my new water heater. Anyway, I'm glad I got to work in two other outlets.

I need to do some translating for my husband today.

Series

I love watching arabic series: I'm currently following these series:
Jawahar---a turkish series dubbed in arabic.
Hara Alhawa--a Syrian series---I've followed it before--but I missed a lot of the episodes the first time around.
Umaima and the orphanage---Kuwati--to be honest I wasn't going to watch it, but than decided that I would give it a chance.
Ashyah tishbh alhob===Syrian---I've seen it as well, and am waiting for it to end, because I never got to see the conclusion.
Ahal alraya part 2---Syrian series.
Zaman Myran---Kuwait--comedy.
An eygption series.
Alshurahra--another turkish series.
Wadi altheiab the fourth part--- also a turkish series.

These days I'm following a number of arabic series, one of them is a Kuwati series, and three of them are Syrian series: One I just started following today,I started following the other one, and then the third one, which I've been following for about a week. However, I've been following the Kuwaiti series, sense the fourth episode---after, Mama Moza, was released from the hospital. There was one on Abu Dhabi---called Adam's Girl's. However I'm not exactly following it.

I finished reading Don't be Sad---and started reading two arabic books. I'd been meaning to read some arabic books for a while. So it's good that I finally picked out two arabic books to read. I even started translating some of the things my husband has asked me to translate--because I finally have the time. Today, I finished translating one part of the chapter, I'm going to let him read through it, and if he likes my translation, then I'll finish the rest.

I hate when people obessess about the past. I can't do anything about the past. I asked, I got no anwsers. And no one offered any anwsers while I was there.

I sometimes like leaving comments on some people's youtube videos. For example there is this one youtuber who doesn't make an ounce of sense in a lot of things---in my opinion--she says she's catholic--and is very close to god, yet she celebrates--Haloween--which is clearly against the Catholic religion-- because it's a day where everyone can dress up---so I suppose it's okay to celebrate the devil's holiday--as long as you just use it as an excuse to dress crazy without anyone saying anything. Whatever.
And then she's a part of this mission--called help the homeless get back home--that sounds stupid---because the homeless wouldn't be homeless in the first place, if they had homes to go back to.

Last night I started watching a turkish series that comes on mbc4--Fame--only I watched it online, on Shadid.net. So far they've only put up nine episodes. Here's what's happened so far, Susan--a semistress in a fancy dress department--met- the son of a famous singer at a party, that she had gone to with her friend, and the two start going out--his name's Maher. Maher's mother doesn't like Susan, because she's not of thier class. Despite this Maher contiues to go out with Susan. So his mom has all of his credit cards cancelled, and locks him out of the house, and makes sure that no one hires him. So he breaks up with Susan--with plans to explain everything to her later on. Later on he finds out through her friend Iman--that she died---she didn't. but that's what Iman told him. As a result of that he got into a car accident and lost his memory. Which Susan obviously never knew about, so when she'd used to see him, she'd wondered why he never reconginzed her, meanwhile his mother is using his accident to make him forget all about Susan. Sometime later, Susan has her baby---Maher's baby---and the family move out of thier neighborhood. She leaves her job, but when she finds out that her daughter is on the brink of losing her ability to hear, she goes back to work, later she's offered a small role in a movie, that one of her other friends are producing. Maher who after his break-up with her, manages to open an office in the same building, see's her all the time, but doesn't remember who she is. Even though he's trying his best to.

There are certain type of people in this world that annoy me. The people who think that only they have all the problems. That no one elses problem can be as bad as thier problem. That they're living in hell and everyone else is living in paradise. You cannot, talk to these kind of people, you just can't. And you especially can't tell them about your problems.

Life is a dark road full of unexpected surprises.

Berry the cat we are house sitting, is currently sleeping in my room. Or as I like to refer to it, the room I'm staying in till I can go back home inshallah. So currently it is my home away from home. But nothing beats your true home. The home, where everything is yours. You know what I'm saying? Anyway. I used to never let the cat in the room, because I used to do translations--I've finished with that job, and had papers all over the place--not really but, I did have papers around, and so sense I don't have any papers around, I'm okay with the cat being in the room. I don't mind leaving the room for a while, and letting her stay.
Sense she's gotten older she's not very interested in playing much. Which is a good thing for me, cause I'm not a huge cat person, and I don't like playing with cats.

Sense I can't take my masters yet, I've decided that I'll take a course in something that I can add to my CV. However I'm not sure which course to take. I'm thinking between, Employment law---however I don't know how I'll manage to get hired with that certificate---even if it seems that it would go along with the degree I already have. Then I'm thinking of taking HR, I guess that would be okay, and that's something that's always needed, lastly, I'm considering Buinsee Administration.

Sometime ago I read a book about this boy named it. his name was Dave. However his mom would refer to him as "it" That poor boy endured the worst punishment for six years of his life, from the age of six to the age of 12. at the age of 12 he was taken out of his mothers home. After he left his brothers had to endure years of mental abuse from thier mother. Now I'm reading a book intitled Dave, and this book is also written from Daves perspective and in this book, he's trying to understand what made his mother the way that she was. He beleives that it had something to do with her childhood. That she herself had endured abuse as a young child, which is why she had been abusive towards him.

To me it' crazy when muslims need a religious person to tell them that prayer is better than sleep. That's a given. Prayer is better than sleep. This doesn't mean that you should just pray and not sleep. Of course you need to sleep. However if prayer is calling, you should wake up and go pray--without having to have some relgious person tell you that while calling for prayer.

Reading

I've currently started reading a book intitled: Unlock your potential:

one of the main influences of our behavior is our state of mind.

So far I really like this person: I've got to the fifth chapter so far. Postive thinking. I think postive thinking is something that's very important. And putting in action is even more important.

Went to the mall.

Last night we went to the mall. First my dad and I went to mall, while my sister went with her friend to the hair salon to get her hair cut and dyed. She ended up doing neither of these things. While in the mall we went to Costa, and then later, my sister's friends dropped her off at the mall and then her and I walked around. So we went to Sephora---the guy there was nice without being creepy. Usually they're either creepy, or too nice, or just down right snobby. Anyway,Sephora had most of the brands that I've heard about on Youtube, safe for Clinque, which we later found in Paris Galary, However, when my sister asked whether or not they had Urban decay, in any other store in KSA, or anywhere else in the arab world, they don't. it's an exclusively American company. Sephora looks nice, however, everything---at least what I'd seen, are all priced the same. Which doesn't make sense to me. The Sephora branded products were just as pricey as all the other brands. After Sephora we went to Sawani---they had Dior, amongst other brands. I didn't really look at the pricey---obviously they were pricy. Lastly we checked out the Body Shop, there I took a look at thier face washes, and body scrubs and washes.

I don't know what's going to happen today. Sometimes I get tired of hoping for good news----Good news that pertains to my situation. I know everyones thinking, "Oh she's so selfish." I'm not being selfish, I like it when I hear about other people's good news. it makes me happy, to know that someone out there is happy, it's a good feeling. However I would also like some good news for myself, for my situation. And to be honest I'm mostly hoping for good news, the involves someone very close to me. At times I wish I could get on the news and talk about this case, because it just so stupid. with a capital S. At times I feel like doing something drastic. Sometimes in life it takes something drastic to make things happen to solve things. Inshallah a door will open soon, that's all I can say. Because now with everyone being on vacation nothing much can be done. So I just have to be patient, and keep praying. So when I say I want goodnews, it's directly related to someone very close to me. This being a public blog, I will not go into the details of the case.

An edit on my past post: on either this blog or my other blog. Random Thoughts: Tuesday marks the ending of the first week of Ramadan, which means we have three more weeks left inshallah.

This is the second week of Ramadan. Which means there's two more weeks left. it's going really fast. Even faster then last Ramaadan.

Anything that comes to mind.

I've been on a reading kick lately. Well not a really huge one, but one nonetheless. I've just mainly been reading three books. Through lately it's mostly been just two book. I haven't read the third book in a while. But I will get back into reading the third book. The two books that I'm mostly reading, are, the Quran, being the holy month, it's an absolute must for me to read the Quran, and A book called, Don't be Sad. I haven't watched any television, sense the start of Ramadan. I turned it on the night of Ramadan---to see whether or not it was Ramadan, now that I think about it, I could have just gone online and checked. Anyway it's not a big deal. I've learned over these past weeks, that I can live without television. If someone were to tell me a year ago, that I could live without television, I probably wouldn't have beleived them. I like my life better without television. I will however watch the last episode of Bab Alhara online through, just cause I want to see how they piece everything together. OR maybe I won't. I'm not sure, I'll cross that bridge when I get to it.

Farm Stores.

1--They need to fix thier systems.
Or close the store till they've fixed thier system.

I went to the mall yesterday. I got a pretzel. When I got home my sister surprised me with a cake, that had a little candle in the middle, it was really nice and sweet of her to do something like that. I wish I could have spent this birthday with my husband, and I wish I could have spent his birthday with him too. Inshallah next time. No one knows what the future will bring. Allah Kareem. Plus I hope we can spend our next aniversary together, not as a celebration, but just to be together.

I'm supposed to cook tomorrow, I got a meal all planned out. Green Beans and Meat, with some rice. I hope we have rice. or else I'm going to have to use a grain of some sort. We got some things from the store in the Rashid.

I got a book from Jareer, I haven't read it yet, but I plan on reading it today.

Earlier we talked to my brothers in America.

I just watched this video, where these Christian protestors were standing by a mosque, handing out booklets, saying, that islam is a lie, and yelling out slogans, such as, Jesus hates muslims. Excuse me, Jesus was preaching Islam, he was ordered by god Allah, to tell the people to worship God alone. if Christians worshipped god alone, without adding Jesus to the equation they would be muslims to. Now even these Christians are going to blame a whole religion, because of what a few alegededly did, they don't even have any proof, thier minds have been eatting away by the media. They're afraid, because when the end comes, Muslims are going to be the winners and they're going to wonder where it all went wrong. I hate when people call islam a lie, especially Christians, because they are supposed to be the closest people to us Muslims, relgious wise. That's something I would expect to hear from an atheisist, from a Jew, but not from a Christian. Maybe some muslims ought to picket thier church, and chant, "Your Bible's a lie!" They wouldn't like that. What really got me though, was, "They want to protect thier town against muslims?" Excuse me, but Muslims have been in that land a lot longer than you have. Don't Blame the muslims for what your goverment does.
And don't condem a whole religion, because of a few people's action. No one should be accunted for anyone else's actions. People always say that but they never mean that. According to those people, if one muslim does something bad, every muslim is bad. However when it comes to their own people, than it's just the indiviual that's bad and not everyone who follows the religion. So yeah, I really wanted to comemnt, but I guess thiers a limitation to the numbe of comments I can leave on youtube channels. in the end I don't want to go to a country that casts a black shawdow over muslims.

Random Thursday2

Today is the second day of the Holly Month. I don't know what series are playing on the various channels, except for a few, like Bab Al7ara, The Door of the neigborhood. it's literally a huge door. if you watch the series you'll understand. I know this cause I watched the previous four seasons. However this Season I won't be watching it. Nor will I be watching any of the other series, like Tash Ma Tash 17, or the one with Hyat alfahad, on MBC, or that eygption series,I want to get married, which started from a blog, which was turned into a book and later published, so the series is based off a book. I've been watching a lot of youtube video's lately. I don't consider youtube television, unless I choose to watch a television program, but today I just plan on watching, video's on make up, and skin care, and hair care. if I can find video's on how to shape eyebrows the right way, that would be great. So far I've kept up with my goal. This will be my first Ramadan with no television. Admittly I turned it on yesterday---before last night, because I wanted to see if they were praying taraweeh which they were. And then I turned it off right after that. I'm doing a lot of spritual things this month, but I don't feel as if I'm doing anything productive, aside from writing. My idea of productive, is to go out there and work, and get a monthly pay check. When I get that, then I will know that I'm being productive. At the moment I don't feel productive. I've done all I can think to get a job, as much as I can online. My dad's right though, people don' care about emails about jobs, they want people to go to them. if that's the case then why do they have employment websites then? I cannot just hop into a taxi and find the nearest buisness, and say, "I'm here to apply for a job." Or can I do that? They probably wouldn't even let me through the front door. A girl that wants to work, who'd ever think that could be possible. Now if I could just get my CV out there, circulating that would be great. I really don't know what to do with my life anymore. I watch people move on, and I just stay right were I am. I say what I think and only one person listens. I pray to God, but to be honest it seems as if all I do is repeat myself, and not get any anwsers. I would like some answers, a sign that something is going right in my life. OF course I know that Allah see's all, and hear's all, and surely he hears my prayers, I have no doubt about that. I just wish I could get some kind of sign, other than a dream that is. I want something real. Some real news. Some Good news.
In other news, it's taking me ages to read the Biography of the prophet, but I plan on finishing it today inshallah.

Questions

I don't understand how Christians can follow a book that's been changed so many times. Plus I don't understand how they think that Jesus as the son of god. Think of it for a second, if Jesus had been the son of god, would he need to pray his own father? Think about the lord's prayer, that you christians say, does it have any mention of Christ, Jesus, being together with god? for example he says, "Thy kingdom come," he does not say, "Our kingdom come." had he been together with God he would have said the latter. Another thing,where in the whole bible does Jesus say, I am god worship me, yet you still have christians, praying to Jesus, and walking around telling people that Jesuse is thier savoir. Even the Rock stars, and the Hip Hop artist, thank Jesus for all what they have. I mean you people, beleive a man was cruicified on the cross for your sins, if that's true, than why then is every baby born with sin? I've always wondered how any person can beleive that God the creator would have a son? it just doesn't make any sense to me whatsoever. So if any Christians read this blog, or happen to stumble upon this post I would like some exlainations. thank you.

on my mind.

I like listening to Hamza Yusif's lectures. I also like listening to Abdurahman Green, and I found a new one, well he's not actually new to the buisness, however it's the first time I've heard of him, Seraj Wahaj, I've only found very short indroductory clips of his lectures, I want to find some of his full lectures inshallah. These are a few of the Westren lecturers that I've been listening too, these past three days. I watched two videos of another American, I don't remember his name though, or even if his name was mentioned.
Abduraman's entry into islam was very interesting.

Went to the store.

I went to Safe Way tonight and got some things. I looked for special K. but they didn't have any. They had one call fitness, but I wasn't interested in that. So I got some cerael bars instead, some sugar, and corn syrup and eggs, for something that my sister wants to make. I didn't get any candy except for Moltesers for my sister. Than for supper I got some rice and meat for everyone. Alhumdullah, I was able to get everything under a certain amount of money. A lot less money than I'd thougt it'd take.

It makes me angry when people think that people Burning the Quran is okay, "We can just print out more copies." That's not the point. The point is so called, Christian priest, may Allah Take thier souls to hell, Ameen for burning his book. Are burning are most scrared book. with the stupid excuse, "it's not scared to me." to that I reply, "Your life isn't scared to me, I guess it's okay to kill you then," This is stupid, five years or more after the fact, no wait, excuse me, ten years after the fact, they're going to burn the Quran, what are they hoping to gain from that? Seriously. Now, "Islam is the religion of the devil, it must be right because the policitians say so." Come on, can't people think for themselves. I stopped watching television, because I want to think for myself, and not have the media do my thinking for me. Anyway, that's besides the point. To me, someone burning the Quran, a book that is sacred to me, and all other muslims, is a horrible evil act, and those who do it, won't get away with it. There is a God, above everything, he see's all and hear's all, and know's all. The whole thing just makes me so angry. Because if people would actually sit and read about islam, instead of just learning whatever they can from the media, they would see that it's a religion of peace. And they would also see that every religion has it's radicicals.

All about Green Tea,

I love Green Tea, especially the flavored Green teas. I don't like the original green tea. Speaking of which I don't like any food or drink in it's original flavor. It's got to have some flavor to it. Or else I just won't drink it or eat it. I just finished a cup of green tea with lemon. It tasted good, it had a slight hint of lemon in it. If I just had plain Green Tea, than I'd add some lemon juice to it. Now there are times where I will drink original green tea. However I'm not a huge fan of it. My favorite brands of Green tea are Lipton, and Twingings, I don't like the rest. I especially don't like the lose leave varity. I'm a tea bag type of green tea drinker.
I tried the Raby3ah it was okay, drinkable but not something that I crave for. I never add any sugar or milk to my green tea, in my opinion adding sugar or milk to tea, takes away from the benefits that your supposed to be getting from drinking the Green tea in the first place. Which makes me wonder if drinking flavored Green tea is any different benefit wise than drinking the original Flavor of Green tea.
Here's what I know about Green Tea:
it's a natural source of Antioxidants,
it's a great Fat burner.
It's supposed to help fight against Cancer.
However you have to drink at least four cups of Green tea per day to get
the benefits of drinking Green tea.

I might be walking to the store later today to get a hair mask. Because my hair needs some really deep conditioning. or I could just use my Hair conditior as a hair mask, by keeping it in for a full day. I'm not sure how well that would work. It worked well for my sister. Though I think my hair needs deeper conditioning than her hair. I'm planning on working out of town, provide that my dad is still working out of town come september. of course I don't know what will have come by september. All I know is that I want to work. So if the oppurtionity arises I'm going to take it. I know I won't be getting paid a lot of money. But now any amount of money is good, is along as I'm earning it myself. I've started with translating. though I'm thinking of working in a school, not as a teacher though, combined with translating I think that would help.

about books

I haven't been to any bookstores in such a long time. |It's not that I need any more books, or want to spend anymore money on any new books. I wouldn't know what to do with all the new books. I barely know what to do with the books I've already got. I could write revisions on them and than sell them. .But who's going to want to buy an old book. They've got used bookstores here that I know of, they won't give me much for the books, but at least they'll give me something, and it'll be a good way of getting rid of a book, without throwing it away. Cause I've thrown out a couple of books. Some of which I beleive were the Sweet Valley high books. don't even ask me how I managed to do such a stupid thing. Because I don't know. I really liked those books, now if I were to go back and read them, I probably wouldn't like them as much. Because I'd think that there way to simple. I'm more into more serious reading nowadays, and not reading about the trites and tribulations of twins in high school. I liked reading them back when I was a preteen and a teen. Because in some tiny way I could relate to them.

Do you ever wonder, why some actors, cover one of thier eyes, or do something weird with one of their eyes? I've always wondered that. So one day my sister told me that it's a sign of devil worship. I thought it was interesting, in a weird way. Because who in thier right mind would worship a fallen angel, or any angel at all. Anyway, yesterday I was watching Youtube, and there's a ton of video's that just prove they are in fact devil worshipers. And they don't even try to hide it, it's clear in thier lyrics. People tend to think that lyrics are just words, that they are nothing, but when in fact, they are messages. it's one of the easiest ways to get a message across, because of the constant repeteveness. I don't know whether or not thier are any arab singers out there who worship the devil. I'm not going to say that there are, and I'm not going to say there isn't. The whole point is. If we are going to take any comfort in anyone, or anything, it should not be them. We should not wish to emulate lost souls which they are. Of course that is not to say that ALL singers are devil worshipers, probably a few select of them are. Or could it just be isn't a coincidence that they, they being, Beyonce, Jay-Z, Lady Gaga, Tyler Swift, Kelly Rowland, Snoop Dogg, Kayne, all show the same devil worshipping sympolisms, all mention something about it in thier songs. And oh yeah we cannot forgot Rhinna. Of course when asked about this. They of course deny it. For whatever reason they are not supposed to divulge that information. Instead they make up stories---not all of them, just the ones that I've mentioned. Because so far they are the only ones that I know of. People who don't know the devil worshipping sympolisms will probably no doubt miss this.

I'm currently watching season three of Britan's next top model. I have to say that it's much better than season one. Season one seemed like a cheap rip off, of the orginial Next Top Model Francise. I'm finding that the later seasons are much better. I'm not really watching them in order. I went from Cycle one, which I didn't finish, so I don't know who won. To Cycle four, I don't remember who won cycle four, it could have been a girl named leann, then cycle two, and now cycle three. It's all very interesting.actually, I think it was cycle two, that Leanne won. Hopefully I'm not wrong, so don't quote anything I write in here. I really want Holly to win this season. Not that it would make my life any better.

Sense there's nothing on television right now. I'm watching, or rather listening to BNTM on Youtube. I've watched all the epidsodes I could find for CNTM and AusTNM, and AMTM. Whilst in Riyadh I watched some Arabic series, one Series, on MBC one, called, little hearts. and another one, called the bottom of the city. I also watched a show on Abu Dhabi, called, The Step, a show that brings up various issues in the Arab world. The episode I watched was about She He's, or Boyat as they liked to be called.
A doctor on the show said, that sometimes, with the She He, the girl thinks that she's actually a boy on the inside, and then there's girls, who think they are in fact girls on the inside, but despite that, they decide to dress and act like guys anyway. Seriously I don't get people like that. Girls, who know that they are girls, both physically and internally, and yet they dress and act like guys, what's thier excuse?

Monopoly

For the life of me I cannot win a game of monopoly. No matter what I do. When I buy the Blue properties I lose, when I buy homes and hotels, I lose. Even when I have the Orange properties I still lose, really no matter what I do I end up losing, I won one time three months ago. That's history now, I've been playing Monopoly this past week with my sister, and she's one every single game, and then I played with my mom and sister and I still ended up losing. I even used the tricks I learned, for the most part, and I still lost. It's really getting very annoying.

I've been looking for information online. Which sometimes isn't a easy thing. Because you'll enter one thing in the search engine, and they'll give a page full of things that aren't even related to what you typed in the first place. So now my only option is to think of different ways of putting it, and my other option would be going directly to the source. and inshallah when Allah sees that I'm activily doing something to get out of the situation I'm currently in, he'll help me all the more. Inshallah I really hope so.

I've finished all my shopping. I did all the shopping in two days. It wasn't really that much shopping to be honest, just a few odds and ends that I needed to get. I still have some money left, but I plan on saving the rest of the money.

After Reading Private, I'm thinking of reading, Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. I'm such a readaholic. Which in comparasion is better than being a smokaholic, or a drug addict, or what not. Anyway, I'm thinking of getting a book when I go to the mall on Monday, I want to get one of those new books, but that will be my last purchase. I have a whole list of things that I need to get, before I can get the book.

So the article I wrote for Triond didn't work out and I'm going to have to write it all over again, or I could just write a completely different article which I'll probably end up doing. I'm about half way done reading Harry Potter and The deathly Hallows. I like Grape Fruit smelling shampoo's over Coconut Scented Shampoo's. That was completely off topic. Back on topic, I haven't written anything for the other website. Because they haven't emailed me so I can reset the password, because I've completely forgot my password. It's supposed to be saved on the computer but I don't know what happened. Brother leaving to the states tomorrow. Yesterday I didn't do much, I played a board game with my sister, read, went on Cafe World, and Farmville, Treasure Isle, and Baking Life. Only one of my friends accepted my neighbor request in Baking Life. Oh well one is better than no one at all. I haven't watched any movies in such a really long time. As usual doctor phil was about the Doctor Phil family on Wendsday, I hate watching them. There's always something new and dramatic going on with them. Of course they wouldn't be on the show if they didn't have dramatic problems. Recently I've discovered a new show that I like, the Riches. They've put it in place of Sports, Kids, Mom's and Dad's. Which ended after that little girl won first place in some sort of dance competition, which her mom was considering taking her out of,because she suspected that there was some cheating going on. She'd seen, one of the girl's parents, recording a video of her daughter dancing, and so they wound up changing thier routine. Amazing race is on Fox series, but I don't watch it. I usually like Amazing Race, but this time I don't feel like watching it. Life, a television show starting Damion Lewis, honestly I watch that show cause I like how Detective Crews, played by Damion Lewis talks. Plus I want to see how it's going to end. Hopefully I'll be able to see the finale. Speaking of Finale's Ugly Betty is coming to an end. Seriously I'm going to miss watching that show. I like how Betty is more put together. So it makes sense for them to end the show, especially with her leaving Mode to work in London-- The store revolved around her workinf in Mode. And now that, that's practically over it just makes sense to end the show.
Anyway, that's all I have to say right now.

My serving tables are almost all empty in cafe world, I'm down to serving the mystical pizza and Chicken Pot pie. I would really like to thank the Cafe world people for providing me with hours upon hours of fun. I have sixteen hours before I get my crops, I'm growing, watermellon, and tulips, The watermellons should be coming in sixteen hours. It really gets on my nerves when people do nothing and expect change. I like the song for the World cup.

my day so far

I woke up this morning at eleven thirty, or eleven forty five. The first thing I did was go online, write a draft in a website, Triond.com. then I seeded some plots in Farmville, I didn't have enough money to seed the entire farm. I have an hour and forty one minutes till my next harvest, I'll be harvesting more things with the money that I make from harvesting the asparagus, I'm thinking of growing yellow mellon, only because it makes the most money. I'm currently taking a break from Cafe world, my serving tables are all full. I have just one more page to translate in chapter fifteen, than I can go on to chapter seven. The chapter I thought I hadn't gotten, but then found. Now I wish that I hadn't found it. But on the other hand I am happy that I found it, because that means extra money for me.

It's one thing to hold a person prisoner when they are guilty, but it's a whole other story when they are innocent. Anyway inshallah all things will go well and this whole thing will be over with soon. I know that what I'm going through isn't as huge or major as some of the problems other people are going through.

Lately I've been reading a blog, by a well known blogger, that goes by the name fourme, she's going through a really difficult time, she's fighting Cancer, I may not know her, and I may never meet her in this life time, but I wish her all the best, and pray that she get's better soon.

It's stupid to say that God gives us more than we can handle, because that's saying that God doesn't know you, that's saying that the one who created you, doesn't know you, doesn't know what you can and cannot handle. No one is going to choose a problem, and say, :Okay I'm strong enough for this problem, god please give me this problem.'
The thing is we don't know how strong we are, till God puts us through the test.

My high heels hate me.Why do I say that you ask? Because I'll put on my heels at home and they'll fit me perfectly, I'll even walk around in them to make sure of this fact,the moment I get in the mall, they're almost a size to big for me. I mean seriously. There is nothing more horrid than walking around in heels that are almost a size to big. I really hate when that happens.So I've come up with a solution, and that solution is to buy padding for my shoes. It's the only way I'll be able to wear them. Cause it makes no sense to let perfectly good shoes go to waste.

Today is the second day of June. That's all I have to say right now.

getting things off my chest.

Yesterday I felt like smacking a guy upside his head with my purse. You see my sister and I were walking down the hall in the rashid, and this guy goes, "Seriously cover your face." WTH, I mean seriously. At first obviously I was very angry about this, but then I see the group again, sometime later, and I recongized his voice, cause I hadn't actually seen him, and then I was like,"I'm not going to let someone who look's as fashionably odd as that, make me feel bad." And then I felt much better.

I absolutely love playing the game's on Facebook. I don't just play facebook games to, I've also been looking for writing jobs, or the closest things to them, which would be getting paid to write articles. I've already found a few websites, I'm currently resistered in two of them, and plan on registering on the other websites as well. It's alway's been my goal to be a writing. I never really thought of using the internet as a way to make money, but then I thought why not, thousands of people have turned the internet into thier little money making machine, what's stopping me from doing the same thing. It's not easy though. So in addition to finding a writing job online, I've also got to find a steady job offline. So far I've been working on the translations, but I'm almost done with those, so I need to get more translations. I've got to go back and look for translation jobs.

To keep my mind off things I've been doing a lot of reading. I've been reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollow, Pride and Prejeduce, How to get along with and Cold Fire. I don't know what I'll be reading next. But besides reading more, I've also been doing a lot of baking.Something I don't usually do. Reading isn't anything new, but baking that's something totally different. Speaking of which I'm not going to be doing any more baking from here on out.

Bored. End of story.

I watched a heart breaking documentary on Dubai one the other day. it's titled was Dear Zachery. It starts off as a film letter to Zachery to get to know his father, the film maker Kurt, had been friends with Zachery's father, who was shot dead before Zachery was born, by Zachery's mother, after he'd left her. Kurt drove all around America, interviewing Kurt's friends and family, they all loved him and missed him dearly. Durin this time Ashely, Zachery's mother was in jail for the murder of her husband, she stayed in Jail for two months, then she was released, provided she did not have any contact with five specicfic people, despite the crime she had committed the judge didn't think she was a danger to sociecty at large and let her go, giving her full custody of Zachery. His grandparents, Andrew's parents fought to get custody of Zachery because they did not trust Ashelly with him, they were constantly looking for ways to get Zachery out, they had trusted in the system and the system had failed them. After Zachery's murder they became child advocates. It's no surprise that Ashely murdered Zachery and in essence The judge was an accomplice in his murder.

I'm currently watching I love Lucy, sense there's nothing interesting on television, I'd decided that I would watch I love Lucy. Being one of my favorite shows to watch I never tier from watching it. Next I think I might watch The Golden Girls I haven't watched that show in a while either. I haven't been watching that many things on youtube, at least not as much as I used to watch, I've been searching for Leadership Management speaches, so far I've found two people that seem good,but I'm searching for more people. It's all apart of a project my dad is working on. Which reminds me my cousin's sister in law, wants my dad to upload some things onto her Ipod, people like Steven Covey, and the like, Tony Robins, On to her Ipod, I haven't gotten the chance to tell my dad about it yet. I'll see how today goes, plus I need to pay for my cell phone bill. I've been doing a lot of translating and so I'm almost finihed with Chapter fifteen, that leaves me with Chapter seven, and a paper to translate and that's the end of my translating job and then I'll have to find another job.

My life has become so mundane lately, I go between, reading, writing, sleeping, praying and eating. And playing games on Facebook. It's always easier to keep one self occupied when they have a timeline for something. I'm the type of person that likes knowing when things are going to happen. I know that you cannot know when everything is going to happen. But I would at least like to know when somethings are going to happen, for example the things that people can actually know when they're going to happen, those are the things that I'm talking about. For example when you're in the hospital and the doctor tells you that you can leave, the doctor gives you a clear time of when you can leave the hospital, they don't give you a vague anwser, and then that ends and you're still in the hopspital.

I don't get people who talk tough and at the beginging of issues they'll do something, but when the time comes for them actually to do something they're too afraid to do anything. If everyone was afraid to do anything, then we'd be no where. What happened to brave people? What happened to the people who stood up for thier rights, who went to all lengths to make sure that thier rights are enforced. People who didn't stand by and listen as people lied to them left and right. I am through believing people/ Because I believed them before, and that only ended in me having my hopes dashed. I'm making an effort to keep my hopes up, I just don't want anyone else to come around and try to raise my hopes, cause I can do that myself, I don't need outside help. The only thing will believe is his voice....and no one elses.......his voice telling me, that this is all over...

Last night out of the blue, Ben, went balastic, yelling and cursing, he said that he wouldn't be going to Eastren Europe, till all his demands were met, and till his brother who was studying over there, came here and got him. This outburst took his sister by surprise, because he seemed just fine, only a few minutes ago. He contitued to talk about the past, about how everything in his life was messed up because of his past. That it was his past that had bought him to the point that he was out. His sister pointed out to him, along with his mother, that living in the past, and staying angry over the past, would only make him insane. But he contiued, and contiued, to yell about the past, to yell about how no body cared about him and how he now needed prove before he'd beleive that someone cared about him. His mother told him that the prove of them caring was them sending him to Eastren Europe. However this anwser wasn't good enough for him, he demanded why they hadn't cared about him before, why they hadn't sent him to Eastren Europe before than, why had they waited all these years? The mother than pointed out to him, that if he waited for his brother to come get him, it would mean that he would be spending more time in a country that was slowly sucking his soul out. Finally he relented and agreed that it would do him some good to leave. Both his mother and sister heaved a sigh of relief. They had been holding thier breath, which was something they both had started doing whenever, Ben got into one of his walk down memory gain mood.

There is nothing worse---well there probably is, than dancing in front of a room full of people, when you don't know how to dance, or your dress is too big for you.... of course part of growing up, is going out of your comfort zone which makes sense. You cannot grow and florish if you're going to stick to the same routine, and stay in your comfort zone, you have to remove yourself from your comfort zone in order to grow. That of course isn't always easy, than again, nothing in life that is worthwhile is easy.

I'm not giving up hope. Because hope is all I have right now. I wish others would do something, but I can't force anyone to do anything, even though I wish I could. We all wish we could force someone to do something. But the world doesn't work like that. All I can do is pray that this all ends soon and that I can get back to my home soon inshallah.

I really want to hear some good news. Not just good news, I want to hear great news. I heard good news three weeks ago now, well actually four weeks ago, and now four weeks later, I want to hear more good news. Because the news I heard that time was pretty good news, now I just wish that there was more news. more good news to complete that good news that I got four weeks ago, inshallah I'll get some good news, because I really need some good news. I keep on praying to get good news. I keep praying that one of these days I'll get some good news. The hardest thing in life, is not giving up hope.

Inshallah I hope that I hear some really good news soon. Very Soon, because that would be really nice. I want to be able to go back home to my Apartment, because I really miss being there. Blogging from my Apartment, is so much different from Blogging from my families Apartment.

Hoping for some good news.

Most recent phone call,
"Hello."
"Hello," in arabic.
"Who is this?"
"Who is this?" Now come on why should I tell you who I am, you're the one calling me! you should be telling me who you are! it should be like this, "Hello, my name is so and so, I would like to speak to so and so."
Not this stupid game of, "Who is it?" Seriosily. I already have enough things to deal with right now, I don't need to add an idiot to the mixture.
In other news I want things to be back to normal. I want to be back home. Inshallah soon, Inshallah soon, I'll be back home for good. Inshallah soon.
That's all I can say at this time. Soon inshallah, I'm starting to sound like a broken record. It's all I think about nowadays, I just think about
going back home, about getting back to my life. Because that's what I really want I want to get back to life. I'm hoping inshallah that sometime this weeek, I'll finally hear some really good news inshallah, because that would be really nice. The thing though is that in this country you never
actually know when they've actually started on something or not, which makes it difficult to put a timeline on it. So I just pray to Allah, that
all of this is done and over with soon,because I really miss my home, and I miss visiting my friend. The point is I miss my new life that I'd started
And I really want to go back to my life.
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Please God let there be good news sooon........

Once again I'm hoping that I will hear some good news today inshallah. That's all I can do right now, and just keep myself busy. I'm reading Increase your financial IQ by Robert T. Kiyosaki. My mom's been borrowing my phone lately because my sisters phone broke again. All in all I'm not feeling too well right now. So I'm having some berry tea, I'm hoping that will help me feel better.

I really want to hear some good news today. Last time I heard some really good news was about a week ago, and so today, I really want to hear some good news. Lately I've been watching a lot of Youtube, I've gone back to watching Perfect Strangers. And I love Lucy, well I've been watching I love Lucy on DVD and not on Youtube. I'm trying out a new face wash. So far I'm liking it. I think it's always good to try something new, I always prefer the products that are suited for sensitive skin over all other products, and the less perfume it has in it the better. Sense my skin tends to be a mixture of oily and dry, I always get face washes for combination skin. If I ever get a cat, I'd name that cat Leo, because Leo seems like such a good name for a cat. We've had cats before I wonder why I never thought to name the cat Leo. I was telling my mom some days ago, that if in the future I have kids and they happen to be close in age, or even twins, which is very likely---that I would not dress them alike. I really hate it when parents dress thier kids alike. They probably do it to save time. Because everybody is in such a huge hurry to get things done, and move onto the next thing. I had three cups of tea this morning, I had a shower, used my favorite shampoo, I noticed that I really don't have a particular favorite shampoo, my favorite shampoo, is really just the shampoo that I happen to be using at that particular time. But it still remains my favorite, so in other words I have a list of favorite shampoos. I always bring my own shampoo and body wash when staying at hotels. Because I cannot stand the shampoos they got in these hotels. I really want to stay in the Sherton, because it seems so luxirous. I didn't want Doctor Phil yesterday, I might watch it this morning, or maybe not. I haven't decided yet. I'm still reading Harry Potter book seven. I'm still translating chapter fifteeen, I still have chapter seven to translate, that I'm not really looking forward to. And a single paper. With a whole lot of words, and sentences, and paragraphs, a lot of writing. I need to stop looking at things from a corner view---I'm hungry for pie, but I can't have any because I'm on a diet----no I'm not obese, I could just stand to lose a couple of pounds. Oh great, I just admitted to the entire blogging community that I'm fat. Well the truth has to be said. My tea drinking, contributes to my weight loss, I've started working out on a semi daily basis, I'm going to turn that into daily workouts.

I woke up this morning at one am. I went online and played some facebook games, which I'm still playing---I have twenty five minutes left on my Cream of Onion soup. Than at four I turned on the television wanting to see Everybody hates Chris, but there was no signal, funny, there was one yesterday. So I turned off television B, and head over to television A, which now is only being used to watch DVDs, or for my brother to play as his Xbox360,and watched Black Sheep, David Spade plays on it, I liked it. But not well enough to watch it again. I wish that the MBC channels were working. I'd hate to Miss Doctor Phil. OR any of my shows. I missed last weeks episode of House. So I don't know what's going on with that ill doctor. I finished reading a book this morning. And am almost done reading another. I haven't read any blogs yet. But I'll get to them. I'm thinking of what to write for Squido, I think I'll just go back and edit my posts. I have no intention on ever getting a twitter page, but I will read other people's tweets. Especially Steven Colbert---I'm with him, I don't like Obama either.

Easter has started on Farmville, I've already got my Egg basket, and so far I have one egg. I've asked for more eggs. I'm going to keep on asking for eggs until the egg rush ends. and I'll be sending eggs, to all my neighbors that have egg baskets on thier farm, that should be most of them save for three of them. I'm currently in level thirty of farmvill--or level twenty nine, I tend to forget----but either way it's over level twenty seven.

I was watching the Insider last night, and this overweight lady starts complaining because this flight intendent, asked her if she needed a larger seat belt, because the small ones, would not fit around her middle. So the over weight lady says, "I cannot beleive she just anounced to the whole plane that I'm overweight. She did not just say that!" Come one, everyone can see that you are over weight, it's not a secret. Speaking of fat people, I read in this other blog, about this lady Jessica Simpson, who's aiming to set to go into the record books as the fatest person in the world. I really don't get fat people who don't want people drawing attention to thier conditon----when it's so obvious. it's not just the over weight people that get started at, or have people taking take backs at them, it's also the same thing with really skinny people, but that's for a different post.

Right now I'm watching season two of 90210, I missed the first few episodes, but plan on watching the remaing episodes. Earlier I watched The Devil wears Prada, my all time favorite movie. Face book isn't working right for me. which doesn't matter right now because I've already harvested my crops and cooked my dishes in Cafe world, so all is good. I've reached up to level thirty five in Diva world, by the timeI get to Level thirty seven, I'll finally be able to open the locked premimum items. I'm bored.

Just when I thought that I was almost done with the translating, I find two papers that I hadn't translated, one which I thought I had translated and the other I had thought had gone missing. Anyway, I'm going to finish transling chapter fourteen, I keep thinking that I'm translating chapter thirteen, when actually I'm translating chapter fourteen. and then I'm going to translate the interduction, which is reletivily short, and then move on to chapter seven, which I had orginally thought had gone missing, or wasn't there in the first place, and then lastly, go to Chapter Fifteen.

I've been thinking about starting an online business. I don't have any idea's yet. I'm going to read about, find out I can start an online business and then figure what I'll do. Mostly I think it's going to do with books and writing. That's all what I got for now.

I've gotten into watching Women's murder club. I tried watching the Good Wife, but it didn't interest me in the least bit. Friday I watched the Real housewifes of Orange County, which was interesting, I want to watch it next Friday. Sense we don't have Showtime anymore--for the moment, I've been relying on the normal television or watching DVD, this morning however nothing much was on television, so I just watched a movie, family Holiday on Mbc Max, which I finally found after I thought that we'd lost it. And then I watched an episode of I love Lucy, which reminds me I need to get those DVDs back to my Friend. Anyway, I finished reading a book this morning, and it won't be long till I finish with another book. This morning I'm watching Maude on Youtube. Cycle thirteen of America's next top model, focus's on the petitie models, safe it for the modeling industry, to consider five seven petite.

You know I don't get some companies. They give a person the illusion that they want to work with them but they really don't. Take for example the company that my dad had a ton of interviews with, and in the end, they probably said no, judgng from the mood my dad is in at the moment. Anyway, I don't know if that;s true or not. All I know is that my dad, went to see the company, saw the person in charged, the person in charged said that he had the job, but because he was apart of a team that he would have to meet with the other team members, so he does that, they ask to have a meeting with my dad, they have the meeting with my dad say that they're going to fix up a proporsal, than say that there's one more person that my dad is suppossed to meet with so he goes and meets with this person, ths person tells him to write a properpasl, so my dad does, sends it by email, the guy tells him, that they'll discuss it the next day, the next day comes and nothing no calls no messages no nothing, and they won't even reply to thier calls either. I really don't get that. I mean if you don't want someone working in your company, all you need to say is, "Sorry we don't want you to work for us." End of story, But not put them on this wild goose chase.

I want to go back home. I want to be back in my apartment. I want to turn on my own television, I want to sit back on my own couch and type away at my Laptop, read a book, eat my noodles.

I must be the biggest nerd on this planet, because I couldn't put down the Fifth Harry Potter novel and wound up reading the entire book in about eigh hours. next I'm going to read book six and then seven. I don't know what I'll be reading next.

I went to the mall today, I will never understand some people---guys especially. You see I was walking like I usally do when I go to the mall, and this guy, goes "She;s wearing shoes." I'm thinking to myself, "What? don't people wear shoes anymore?" I should have responded with, "You're wearing shoes too." Then later while waiting for my dad at the mobily place, a guy wearing leggings walks by and gives me this strange look, more of a, "What the hell are you wearing?" type of look, I'm thinking to myself, "Hey mister you're the one wearing leggings and I'm the one whose dressed strangely but whatever. The strange things you see when you walk around the Rashid mall on a Friday.

I finished reading book nine of Pendragon and have started reading book ten of Pendragon. After which I plan on reading the Harry Potter Series, starting from book one. Despite the fact that I've already started reading book six, you know actually I think it would make better sense for me just to finish book six and then trace back to book one. There's no harm in doing that. Anyway, last night I watched Even Stevens, Spilt ends---I caught the ending of it, and How do I Look, oh yeah and some other shows, like Law and order. I tried watching Ten things I hate about you, but it's just not my cup of tea, I prefer Prison break over Ten things I hate about you.

I hate when I get angry about something and some idiot will go, "It's like that all over the world, it's like that in America too." Excuse me in America, a client has a right to the lawyer---that's the first thing a suspect is told when he's being arrestted, and that it's a crime if his rights aren't read to him, now of course there maybe some cases where the person's rights hadn't been read to them, and usually those cases are resolved, the point is a person has a right a legal right to an Attorney, and if a person is denied an Attorney, then it;s not longer a legal case, it's a case of imprionment without a lawyer---which usually happens during wars,,,,I could be wrong about that, but that's the way it looks to me. Anyway, you can't compare the two things, you can't compare a country whose paranoid that someone is going to start something--blow up a bomb perhaps, and a county that is for the most part save and not under attack, take a person, not let the person talk to anyone, not let them have a lawyer, and then have the audacity to sit back and say, "Saudi arabia is an islamic country, we run by the book and sunna." I have read the holy book and the Sunna, no where in the Sunna or Quran does it say to,
Lock up someone with no prove, to take days from thier life, because,
You happend to have gotten a tip from an Angry person, who had it in for the person, that, that person is some kind of threat. I mean come on!!!

I really like reading the Pendragon books. I want to look for more books like the Pendragon books.

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My stomache is feeling very weird right now. That's what happens when I get worried about something and right now I'm obviously worried about something. Lately I've been scoping out Freelance writing jobs or any kind of writing jobs I can find while searching through the Freelance writing directory. I tried sending an email to a company but the website froze on me, I might try again later, but I'm not too eager about it. So far almost every other email send to a company comes back to me, with a failed message. I had a dream about candy yesterday, and my dad and my brother and i were driving in one car, and he'd left his other car behind our car, so when we where backing out of the parking lot he pushed the other car out and it ended up falling close to a ditch but it didn't it just kept going, and going, and then it turned into a van, and then it got itself out to safe ground, while we were all watching, in my dream i kept refering to a depressed train that went off the tracks and refused to get back on the tracks----Yes this is almost one of my weirdest dreams.
Sense when did inatimitate objections have feelings?
Sense never. There were other parts of the dream but they're pretty normal compared to the parts I just talked about.

stupid comment

So I got a response to a comment that I'd made on Youtube about a month ago, stating that Persion's aren't arabs. And this dimwit replies and says, "I think I know where I'm from mate." WTH! it's just so obvious that Persion's Iranian's are not arabs. Ask any Persion and they'll tell you that. For one thing what makes an arab arab is the arabic language----- Iranian's speak Farsi, they don't speak arabic. So that right there is prove enough. But not for this idiot. No, according to him, he's a Persion arab---I don't know him maybe he's part Arab---I was commenting on what the comedian had said, and she had stated that Iranians are from the middle east, which is so untrue. Maybe they think because they are so close to the Iraq that they must be arab.

I'm currently watching the episode of I love Lucy, where they go on a bicycle trip, and Lucy winds up stuck on the Italian Boarder two times.
This is on the last disc of the Season Five, which I'm borrowing from my friend. The episode just finished so now I'm listening to Alex Jones. I like listening to this guy, even though I don't agree one hundred percent with everything that he says.

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Yesterday was Valatine's day, I didn't celebrate it at all. I've never cared much about that so called holiday. I find it stupid. Anyway, not much has been going on lately, my dad's in town, gathering information on two potiential companies, inshallah I hope all goes well for him, he deserves a break. He's been working so hard lately, my dad doesn't like using that term, so I'll say he's been working so Smartly lately. I want to go somewhere today, but I don't know where too, I'm pretty much broke in the money department, so I can't go on any spending spree's, besides I think I got more than enough while in Bahrain. I'm getting back into working out. My problem is that I'll start working out for a couple of days and then I'll stop, and find it really difficult to get back into the ring of things. I was going to wait till I got a replacement for the Treadmill, which like I suspected turned out to be a used one, that the store was reselling, after it had been returned by the previous owners. Sure he got at a good deal because of this, but what's the point of a good deal if the darn thing doesn't work? In good news, I finally heard from my Sister in law, that was really nice. I ws under the impression that she hated our family and didn't to have anything to do with us or me. Anyway, things have kind of been rocky over here, but that's neither here nor there, if that makes sense, all I can say is that it's a personal matter, and I would rather keep it private. I went to bed at eleven nineteen last night woke up in time for Fajer prayer---prayed, tried going back to sleep after I'd prayed, couldn't, so I got up, that was about nine minutes after six am, I read blogs for a little more than an hour, some updated some hadn't, took a shower, got dressed, sent three emails, an inqury email, and two employment emails, along with my CV, I'm really hoping that I'll hear from someone soon. It's been suggested that I try getting a job in an internatinational scool, that doesn't look right.... I finished reading two books, yesterday, Deja Dead, which to be honest I didn't get, Global minds, which basically pertaining to buisness organizations. I'm currently reading Twenties girl, which I'm liking a lot. The Host, which is much more interesting, than some girl that falls in love with a Vampire, to be honest, I did read those books, they where alright reading, but not worthy of reading a second time around, and so I won't be wasting my money on any of the books, I just borrowed them from my sister, who's a huge fan of the book and the movie. I prefer Harry potter, books over Twilight. The last book in the list, is Unsticky, which is an interesting read. The only two books that I'm currently reading now, are, Twenties girl which I wasn't going to get at first, because she talks to a ghost in this one, but then I decided that I'd get it, after reading the first page, and besides I just love Sophia Kinsella, I've become hooked on her writing ever sense I started reading the Shopaholic series, a series of books I never imagined I would read.

I went to Bahrain on Monday and stayed for two days, orginally we were only going to stay for one day. But then we decided to stay one extra day. The first day we went to the Seef mall, I got two DVD sets and a book. After leaving the mall we just drove around in search of a hotel. He called his brother, who'd gone to Bahrain, if he knew any hotels, he didn't know any decent hotels,well known hotels that is, and never got back to him, so I called my dad and found out where the hotel that we used to stay in when we'd stay over night in Bahrain, so we got there, and first he checked out the hotel, to see if it was up to par, he said, it'd be good enough for a day, which later turned to be two days. We got there about eight thirty, I changed into pajama's and just went right to sleep, he came back from the meeting with his friend, and asked if I wanted to get something to eat, but I was just too tired, so I just slept and woke up the next morning. He was asleep when I woke up, and so I just got cleaned up, got a bit of make-up on nothing drastic, and then sat with a nice thick book by the window, and started to read, he woke up, and we headed out to the Bahrain City center, I recharged my phone at the coffee bean, I like their service over there plus thier really friendly, unlike some other coffee place 1882, and anyway, I got two cold coffee's and ended up with a really bad headache, and only got about an hour of sleep the next day. So I stayed at the mall for a total of seven hours, just walking around, and doing some shopping here and there, mostly at the pharmacy and forever21, which has become my go to place for clothes shopping. Before yesterday, I spent the majority of the day in the Seef mall, I got some mexican food for lunch, I want to find some mexican food here. Anyway I got a book, Sofia Kinsella, twenties girl, Lipstick from nieva, Banna Shampoo from the body shop. Tuesday, I got the english translation of Deja dead. For drinks I got Strawberry lemon drink from the pretzel place.

So I finally get a treadmill and it stops working from the second use. It's brandnew so we have a warranty on it, so they should replace it hopefully, or bring someone to fix it. There's obviously something wrong with the Engine, because the engine makes this click, click noise when it's turned on. Plus I highly doubt that it's normal for all programs on the treadmill to indicate the same amount of time.

Sometimes I wish I had a ton of Crayons and Markers, and a huge Drawing pad, then I would just sit and draw pictures all day. Hey there's nothing wrong with wanting to have some nice clean fun. Now is there? I think not. So the next time I go to the bookstore, I may just buy those things. Give my mind a break from reading for a while--- but I will read till I go to the bookstore, I don't know when that will be. That's just how I feel right now. I feel like I need to do something fun, something out of the ordinary.

I'm in such a horrid mood right now. But there's this funny movie on right now. So it's taking my mind off things. Well not exactly, I'm still angry over the whole Supper Debasacle, if only the Oven worked. He didn't like supper, and practically starved himself all day or so he says, only to find out that what I made wasn't that good. I feel bad about that. Plus I'm annoyed that I still don't have my treadmill.....I've sent my resumes, and still haven't gotten any replies from any of them. They can at least reply with a no. They don't have to say yes, but the least they can do is aknowedge that they've recived my email.

When I went food shopping on Saturday, I had in mind an idea for a meal. But come today, I find that I have a whole new idea, mostly because of the lack of pots and pans, I have one of each, and some dishes, you normally need to have two pots, one to make the rice in and one to make the soup in, and so I decided that I would just do a whole new Chicken soup, using Potato's and Carrots. Next time I'll make the other dish, after I at least get one more pot.Things sure would be a lot easier if I had a kitchen.

The hardest thing for someone that doesn't have a job, is to find a job. Looking for a job is easy, with the help of the internet, a person can simply, find companies online, and send them thier CV, but the hard part, is the waiting to get a response from them, and then being rejected because, You don't have any experience. I just really want to find a job, the last thing I'm going to try, is clerical work in a school.

Walk on a river, climb a moutain,
Hug a person you love.
Tell a person you love them before it;s too late.
Shed some tears,
Rememeber that we're all human, and that just because
you happen to cry doesn't mean that you're a baby,
it just means that you're human,
and if someone can't handle, you being human and having
Feelings, than that's thier problem.

I didn't even turn on the television yesterday. Thursday I totally forgot about make it or break it, I'm going to check if someone has uploaded any video's on Youtube.

I finished reading Skinny Bitch in a day, now I'm reading an absolute scandal, next I plan on reading Malika, The book of fate, little women,
the gate house, the twelveth card, and the second book of the maisons, well techinically I am reading that book but lately I've been taking a break from reading that book.

I organized the bookshelve, the apartment spells weird, like this burning rubber smell, but now it's gone. Wonder where it was coming from.....Hmmmm, not much going on, took a shower, dried my hair, couldn't wait all day for it to dry. Tomorrow inshallah.I'll be doing some grocercery shopping myself for the first time ever. so that should be different, I just hope there's no really long lines at the cashiers. I need to call my friend and verfy with her for tomorrow, cause I have already varavied with my husband. Now lets see what else is there? contiue watching America's next top model on Youtube.

I feel sorry for children who's parents are crackheads, and have to be taken care of by other people.

Here I am.

I just finished reading Plain Truth. I want to get the tenth Circle, also by the same author, as a matter of fact, I want to get all of her books. I love her writing, and I love that she has questions at the back of the book, so it makes it easy to really hammer in the thoughts in my mind, and it would make really good, for a book club. To bad I don't know enough people that like to read. Next book to finish, is Broken Prey. Yesterday I finished reading Lovely Bones. I think I went to bed, at around seven thirty last night, and woke up at one forty five, washed my face, with my Himayla face wash, my face has gotten to be dry----even my T-zone, has become dry----now I'm going to have to get a different Face wash, a creamy face wash, or just something for all skin types, because my skin---is constantly changing from dry to combination, to oily. I wish it would just choose a type and stick with it.

I have a goal, to go without watching teleivison for an entire week. I know that I will be missing a lot of my favorite shows---but last time I watched them, I couldn't focus on them anyway. And besides, it won't kill me to miss those shows-----,I'll make allowence for Youtube---as long as it;s working, it's been on the brink lately----so for the most part this week, I'm going to be focused on reading my novels, and polishing my writing. After all as the cliche, goes, practice makes perfect.

no television.

I didn't watch any television at all on Wensday, it stayed off all day long, and you know something it didn't feel weird having it off. Of course I found noise elsewhere, I love Lucy DVDs, watched, the first disc of season five, watched some Youtube, it was working okay at first then, it just stopped working---well not exactly but it started acting all weird on me. So that's when I popped a tape in the tape player, just for the sake of news. Right now I'm listening to a tape, as I write in this blog. A tape I think I got in Jeddah, back in 2001, or 2002, I think. I kind of remember it, my Grandma was going to Jeddah, and I wanted to go to, so at the last minute my dad found me a reservation, and I got to go with my Grandma. I was worried that they wouldn't be expecting me, and that they'd be angry that I'd come, but they weren't. it turns out that my dad called my aunt beforehand. So the second day we were there, we went to this vacation house, that had a swimming pool, we spent the entire day there, I swam, ate, and had a really good time with my cousins. Though it bothered me that I was the heaviest one amongst my cousins, so that's when I decided to lose weight. I always have to remind myself, that I shouldn't compare myself to others, because my body isn't built like their bodies, I don't have really small bones, like they do, but still doesn't not an excuse to eat whatever I please, and then sit around and do nothing.

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I'm bored right now. I just had five hours of sleep, and I can't get back to sleep. I went to Applebee's last night with my dad, didn't like thier hot chocolate---the service was fast, but I did like thier triple layered chocolate cake. That was delicious. Went to Safeway----and forgot to get Garbage bags, seriously I don't know what's happening to my brian anymore, I thought reading was supposed to be making me smarter, not forgetful, but I did get some other things that I needed, no junk food items, even though that was one of the reasons I had wanted to safeway, for thier American Candy, but now I'm glad I didn;t get any, and in the end I wound up, not spending very much so that's a good thing. The store was pretty empty, then it was after eleven, so that's understandable. I tried to call my husband and tell him that I'd be going out with my dad---but he never called back, and so I figured, I'm going to be going with my dad----no one strange----and I'm going to the store to get the things that I need.
That is all folks.

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Nothing much happened yesterday, I spent the entire day in bed, woke up, at seven or a little before seven, about six forty five, talked with my friend for a couple of minutes, didn't make any plans to go visit her yet, I want to wait till I'm feeling better, health wise. I've missed three episodes of the Simpson's so I think I'm going to make a day out of watching them on Thursday, now if I could only remember what time they game on. I think sometime around two pm, probably, if I'm not wrong, which I hope that I'm not.

I believe that I have matured a lot sense I've gotten married. For example, on Wensday, I went with my dad to the Mobily store, to see how many points I had on my phone, I never got to find out because thier systems where down, Anyway, before I get to that part, I was sitting with my dad, and then my dad got up and went to some desk, to ask about the points, I got up to follow my dad, but my dad said to stay, so I stayed, then a few minutes later this young saudi guy, working there, tells me to go sit with my father, no normally I'd give the man a mean look say something under my breath and walk on, but this time I just said okay, and walked on my way. But the thing is later I got really peturbed with myself, because I knew that I had to get up anyway, but waited for some man to tell me so, cause I don't have a damn mind of my own. I hate that.
I hate myself right now.
bye.

Perfect strangers.

Hello everyone. I'm sitting at home. Listening to Perfect strangers episode nineteen season three on Youtube in the background. In this episode Balki graduates from night school and passess with a perfect score, but is crestfallen when he finds out that there isn't going to be any speach. But in the end he gets to say his speach, which makes him very happy.

my thoughts on the new scanner.

I object to the new scannner machines they've got in some if not all Airports in the united states. That is just too much. I don't mind them going over my body with one of those little rod things---the kind that beep, if you're wearing anything that has metal on it. Well if you go traveling you'll know exactly what I'm talking about. But when it comes to standing in a little booth, and being seen completely naked, that is a virtual strip search, and only common criminals, and shady people should be subjected to. I wonder if the search goes for all people or just certain people. How good is the new scanning system, when it detect, the christmas bomber? Something smells fishy in Denmark.

I cleaned most of the apartment today. I think I'm going to orgainize my books, putting all the authors of the same books in one pile. That's how freaking bored I am right now. I don't know if he's still going to be going to Syria next week or not---like Monday or Tuesday, I haven't gotten a chance to ask him yet. I'm currently reading some Fearless books, The devil wears prada, and all the things that you need to know. I like the fearless books the best out of the books that I'm currently reading right now. My scedule is all messed up, and I still haven't gotten any help on my CV, I give up. I don't want to work anymore.

names

Favorite names-------
Reem,
Rita,
Rose,
Ellie
Carrie
Samantha
Debra
Mandy
Gloria,
Eleena
Dora
Cara
Cindy
Cynthia
Casey
Tony
Todd
Timothy
Alice
Micheal
Michael.
Donna

Jessica
Heather,
Anne
Anna
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Those are the names that I use in most of my stories.
Of course nowadays I've started to use other names.
But most those names, are the names that I've used in
Stories, of course there are a few names I haven' used
in any stories yet, but I probably will eventually.

very annoyed

I'm feeling very sick and annoyed right now. I want to leave this country. Everybody I know is leavin this country. Either they are leaving or they are going to leave. But no I'm just stuck in this country. Stuck in the same box. I hate it when people tell me that you should leave the country, to get out of the box. But they don't take you. They just keep you hoping that they'll take you, but they never do. And I hate that. I hate that he gets to go to Syria practically every month, or every other month, and I have to stay stuck here, in KSA, I just want to go out of the box. That is why I feel so annoyed right now. Plus I'm not feeling that good either. I think I'm coming down with a flu, cause I have a headache, a slight stomach ache, and my bones are sore. Anyway, He'll be going to Syria, sometime next week inshallah, I really hope I can find a job before he goes to Syria, so at least I won't be stuck at home all the time. You know I'd have a job to do, even though it's going to be a job, within the same box, that I so desperately want to get out of. And I do not count spending ten hours in Bahrain, as getting out of the box, because when you go to Bahrain, all you see are Saudi's and I'm thinking I didn't leave Saudi to see more Saudi's. But times, I just feel so desperate to get out, that I don't see who I see on the other side as long as I get out of the box. That's what I want to do I want to get out of the box. I'm hoping that during the Summer I'll get a chance to get out of the box. There's been some talk about going to China, though I don't know when that is going to be. I'm hoping that after Jeddah,we're supposed to stay there for three weeks, inshallah, I could probably go visit my Aunt,and cousins, anyway, I was thinking that we could stop by in Dubai, or Bahrain, on our way back. Yeah, like that;s going to happen. I might as well just own up to the fact that I'm going to be stuck in this box, for a really long time. And I hate it. I hate watching people leave, and come, and go as they please, and here I am just stuck here. And once I start visiting or people start visiting me, all they'll ask, "Do you travel anywhere during the summer?"
"No." "Why not?" "Ask my husband."

Right now I'm feeling bored. Bored and fat, so I'm excerising. Taking a break from exersising now to type here. I'm doing some reading as well, something to kill time, while I wait for the Youtube video's to upload, sometimes they take a really long time to load. I played three games of chess yesterday, and won all three games, I must say I'm getting much better at playing this game. So far I've done about three hours of workouts. But I've been taking small breaks, so that's no so bad. I haven't had any diet drinks in such a long time. I think the last time I had a diet drink was somewhere in the middle of December, or maybe before. It feels good. When I went to Applebee's when my brother came to visit, I got juice, I always order Juice from Applebee's, I love thier selections. I got some Hair oil, because my hair tends to get really dry. But I don't know whether your supposed to put it in, before you shower, or after. I remember I got my hair styled in Jeddah, and the lady mentioned something about using hair oil after the shower, and not washing it out, so I think
I'll do that.

Watched Bride Wars, liked it.
Watched Bridge to Terabethia, liked it to. But found it kind of sad.

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Okay, no one reads this blog anyway, so if I make mistkates, it doesn't really matter. I suppose having a non famous blog does have it's bright side. I was half expecting to recive some stupid comment on my last post, or any of the posts that I've put up. In other news, mashallah, my friend's baby girl, just keeps on getting cuter, she looks so smart to, like she knows, what people are talking about. Anyway, I love babies, but find them intimitating. I guess that's weird. My sister held my friends baby girl, I didn't hold her. The only babies I've held, where my cousin's baby's, my siblings and that's all. I remember when I was five, and had the chicken pox, it was on the holiday's, my brother got me a really cute cloth doll, I miss that doll, it was one of my favorite dolls, sense I got married, I gave my dolls to my sister, and the rest, have gone to my mom's room, on top of that one closet, that we store junk in. Anyway, my dad's in town so I might see him tomorrow. I really want to get a job. I'm supposed to be getting job applications tomorrow, or the day after, or whenever. The thing is that I want to work, but I don't know what I would be quilifed to do? Because I've never had a job before, and I took a career test once and found out that, I'd be really good at writing. But I don't beleive that, my writing, isn't half as good as the books that I read. At the same time though, it has gotten better over the years. I'm working on some new novels these days, I have some other ones, saved on a hard drive, from my former laptop, that I heard is now
Working again, I told my mom that she could feel free to use it, because, obviously I won't be using it. When I got it back, after my dad had taken it to the repair shop, they'd changed the cord that I'd used for it, I don't know why, my mouse wasn't working, and neither was the sound, I got so frustraited with the whole thing.
My mom is the person I turn to when I get really frustraited, but sense I've moved here, I don't always turn to my mom, cause usaully when I feel frustrated I don't feel like talking to anyone on the phone. So I just cry alot when I'm frustrated, or bored out of my mind, and there's nothing to do. Oh my husband told me yesterday, that, we live by a lot of nice stores, but they're all on the other side, if I have to cross any streets to get to them, then in my book they're not close. Close by car, okay, but not close enough for me to walk to. I don't know, sometimes I get the feeling that my other little brother, doesn't like me. I could be wrong about that, I hope I'm wrong about that. I really love black eye make-up, I just love how it makes the color of my eyes really pop out. it's like when I wear black eye make-up, my eyes, looking really brown, and not black, except, if I'm standing kind of far away, then my eyes look black. But they're really just dark brown. Some people call that honey color, but my eyes aren't honey colored. I want to go to the mall this weekend, I want him to take me out to a mall. But first I want to get some things that I need from Saco. I don't want to go to some cheap store, for kitchen stuff, that's only going to last a couple of months, I want to get the top quilty, so you pay now and save in the long run. I already got somethings, now I need to get other things. I have a ton of vegetables, I think tomorrow---today, I'm going to make some boiled potato's, I don't even know why he bought so many, it's not like I asked for any, oh why didn't I buy any salt? I have butter, but no salt? What was I thinking.D'oh, I wasn't thinking. I love watching the Simpson's I watch it everyday.
Yesterday they finally showed new epidoses, I was really glad about that. Um, what else? I should be getting a treadmill today inshallah. I really hope so. And I guess
tomorrow, my husband should tell me about his decision about moving. I'm for moving, but in the end it's going to be his choice, obviously.

980

A list of books I've finished, other than the books that I've already mentioned in either this blog or my other blog, Falling for you. I'm currently reading, Princess in Training, and the undomestic housekeeper. Reading that books makes me want to get Twenties girl. I'm hoping to go to Jareer sometime this year. Inshallah next Friday I want to go to Last chance, cause I need to get some winter pajama's.

2

I finally got some cleaning things for the apartment. My husband told me about an Apartment last night, and showed me the location of it, it's not that far from the apartment that we're staying in now. I like the location way better than this apartment, for one thing, there's stores down stairs, that I could go to if I need anything, plus it's in a quieter area, which I think is another plus. What I think makes it most worthwhile, is the fact that the rooms are bigger, our rooms are kind of small, kind of! they ARE small, and it has a kitchen already installed, sure it's not brand new, but what's the point of having a brand new apartment when you don't have a kitchen and you live in a bad area, that doesn't have any nearby stores? So yeah, I hope that he doesn't give up this chance, and takes it. Because we'd be paying the same price we're paying here, plus we'd save thousands on a new kitchen set from IKEA.

Here's how I think that the series---things that look like love---- is going to end--- I think that that, That Deena's going to have her wedding party, thier uncle is going to move back in with the family, Rabab, is going to get married to some guy.
As for the other series----under the madas---I don't know what that means, I'll have to ask my husband.
I already know that, Shadi has aids, his sister divorced her husband,
but here is what I guess is going to happen next, afafaf, is going to be killed. The doctor-- who she was married too---before he divorced her, because his mother didn't
think that she was good enough for him, is going to get married, to some other guy. The lady with the short hair is going to get married to the doctor.
Here's what I think of Afafaf's brother shooting her,, first of all, what good is
mudering your sister going to do? it's not going to make any difference, just like Sharar, said, his two sisters had done the same thing, and they had killed them, and it only made matters worse, and they ended up having to leave the little village that they where from and moving to another village...Second of all, she was married, sure it was only witnessed by a Shaik, but it was a marriage nonetheless, and Thafer had the papers, and Abu Zakwan knew that, but tore it up. But he was only interested in the money---I'm glad that he gets shot at the end of it.