Sense I can't take my masters yet, I've decided that I'll take a course in something that I can add to my CV. However I'm not sure which course to take. I'm thinking between, Employment law---however I don't know how I'll manage to get hired with that certificate---even if it seems that it would go along with the degree I already have. Then I'm thinking of taking HR, I guess that would be okay, and that's something that's always needed, lastly, I'm considering Buinsee Administration.

Sometime ago I read a book about this boy named it. his name was Dave. However his mom would refer to him as "it" That poor boy endured the worst punishment for six years of his life, from the age of six to the age of 12. at the age of 12 he was taken out of his mothers home. After he left his brothers had to endure years of mental abuse from thier mother. Now I'm reading a book intitled Dave, and this book is also written from Daves perspective and in this book, he's trying to understand what made his mother the way that she was. He beleives that it had something to do with her childhood. That she herself had endured abuse as a young child, which is why she had been abusive towards him.

To me it' crazy when muslims need a religious person to tell them that prayer is better than sleep. That's a given. Prayer is better than sleep. This doesn't mean that you should just pray and not sleep. Of course you need to sleep. However if prayer is calling, you should wake up and go pray--without having to have some relgious person tell you that while calling for prayer.

Reading

I've currently started reading a book intitled: Unlock your potential:

one of the main influences of our behavior is our state of mind.

So far I really like this person: I've got to the fifth chapter so far. Postive thinking. I think postive thinking is something that's very important. And putting in action is even more important.

Went to the mall.

Last night we went to the mall. First my dad and I went to mall, while my sister went with her friend to the hair salon to get her hair cut and dyed. She ended up doing neither of these things. While in the mall we went to Costa, and then later, my sister's friends dropped her off at the mall and then her and I walked around. So we went to Sephora---the guy there was nice without being creepy. Usually they're either creepy, or too nice, or just down right snobby. Anyway,Sephora had most of the brands that I've heard about on Youtube, safe for Clinque, which we later found in Paris Galary, However, when my sister asked whether or not they had Urban decay, in any other store in KSA, or anywhere else in the arab world, they don't. it's an exclusively American company. Sephora looks nice, however, everything---at least what I'd seen, are all priced the same. Which doesn't make sense to me. The Sephora branded products were just as pricey as all the other brands. After Sephora we went to Sawani---they had Dior, amongst other brands. I didn't really look at the pricey---obviously they were pricy. Lastly we checked out the Body Shop, there I took a look at thier face washes, and body scrubs and washes.

I don't know what's going to happen today. Sometimes I get tired of hoping for good news----Good news that pertains to my situation. I know everyones thinking, "Oh she's so selfish." I'm not being selfish, I like it when I hear about other people's good news. it makes me happy, to know that someone out there is happy, it's a good feeling. However I would also like some good news for myself, for my situation. And to be honest I'm mostly hoping for good news, the involves someone very close to me. At times I wish I could get on the news and talk about this case, because it just so stupid. with a capital S. At times I feel like doing something drastic. Sometimes in life it takes something drastic to make things happen to solve things. Inshallah a door will open soon, that's all I can say. Because now with everyone being on vacation nothing much can be done. So I just have to be patient, and keep praying. So when I say I want goodnews, it's directly related to someone very close to me. This being a public blog, I will not go into the details of the case.

An edit on my past post: on either this blog or my other blog. Random Thoughts: Tuesday marks the ending of the first week of Ramadan, which means we have three more weeks left inshallah.

This is the second week of Ramadan. Which means there's two more weeks left. it's going really fast. Even faster then last Ramaadan.

Anything that comes to mind.

I've been on a reading kick lately. Well not a really huge one, but one nonetheless. I've just mainly been reading three books. Through lately it's mostly been just two book. I haven't read the third book in a while. But I will get back into reading the third book. The two books that I'm mostly reading, are, the Quran, being the holy month, it's an absolute must for me to read the Quran, and A book called, Don't be Sad. I haven't watched any television, sense the start of Ramadan. I turned it on the night of Ramadan---to see whether or not it was Ramadan, now that I think about it, I could have just gone online and checked. Anyway it's not a big deal. I've learned over these past weeks, that I can live without television. If someone were to tell me a year ago, that I could live without television, I probably wouldn't have beleived them. I like my life better without television. I will however watch the last episode of Bab Alhara online through, just cause I want to see how they piece everything together. OR maybe I won't. I'm not sure, I'll cross that bridge when I get to it.

Farm Stores.

1--They need to fix thier systems.
Or close the store till they've fixed thier system.

I went to the mall yesterday. I got a pretzel. When I got home my sister surprised me with a cake, that had a little candle in the middle, it was really nice and sweet of her to do something like that. I wish I could have spent this birthday with my husband, and I wish I could have spent his birthday with him too. Inshallah next time. No one knows what the future will bring. Allah Kareem. Plus I hope we can spend our next aniversary together, not as a celebration, but just to be together.

I'm supposed to cook tomorrow, I got a meal all planned out. Green Beans and Meat, with some rice. I hope we have rice. or else I'm going to have to use a grain of some sort. We got some things from the store in the Rashid.

I got a book from Jareer, I haven't read it yet, but I plan on reading it today.

Earlier we talked to my brothers in America.

I just watched this video, where these Christian protestors were standing by a mosque, handing out booklets, saying, that islam is a lie, and yelling out slogans, such as, Jesus hates muslims. Excuse me, Jesus was preaching Islam, he was ordered by god Allah, to tell the people to worship God alone. if Christians worshipped god alone, without adding Jesus to the equation they would be muslims to. Now even these Christians are going to blame a whole religion, because of what a few alegededly did, they don't even have any proof, thier minds have been eatting away by the media. They're afraid, because when the end comes, Muslims are going to be the winners and they're going to wonder where it all went wrong. I hate when people call islam a lie, especially Christians, because they are supposed to be the closest people to us Muslims, relgious wise. That's something I would expect to hear from an atheisist, from a Jew, but not from a Christian. Maybe some muslims ought to picket thier church, and chant, "Your Bible's a lie!" They wouldn't like that. What really got me though, was, "They want to protect thier town against muslims?" Excuse me, but Muslims have been in that land a lot longer than you have. Don't Blame the muslims for what your goverment does.
And don't condem a whole religion, because of a few people's action. No one should be accunted for anyone else's actions. People always say that but they never mean that. According to those people, if one muslim does something bad, every muslim is bad. However when it comes to their own people, than it's just the indiviual that's bad and not everyone who follows the religion. So yeah, I really wanted to comemnt, but I guess thiers a limitation to the numbe of comments I can leave on youtube channels. in the end I don't want to go to a country that casts a black shawdow over muslims.

Random Thursday2

Today is the second day of the Holly Month. I don't know what series are playing on the various channels, except for a few, like Bab Al7ara, The Door of the neigborhood. it's literally a huge door. if you watch the series you'll understand. I know this cause I watched the previous four seasons. However this Season I won't be watching it. Nor will I be watching any of the other series, like Tash Ma Tash 17, or the one with Hyat alfahad, on MBC, or that eygption series,I want to get married, which started from a blog, which was turned into a book and later published, so the series is based off a book. I've been watching a lot of youtube video's lately. I don't consider youtube television, unless I choose to watch a television program, but today I just plan on watching, video's on make up, and skin care, and hair care. if I can find video's on how to shape eyebrows the right way, that would be great. So far I've kept up with my goal. This will be my first Ramadan with no television. Admittly I turned it on yesterday---before last night, because I wanted to see if they were praying taraweeh which they were. And then I turned it off right after that. I'm doing a lot of spritual things this month, but I don't feel as if I'm doing anything productive, aside from writing. My idea of productive, is to go out there and work, and get a monthly pay check. When I get that, then I will know that I'm being productive. At the moment I don't feel productive. I've done all I can think to get a job, as much as I can online. My dad's right though, people don' care about emails about jobs, they want people to go to them. if that's the case then why do they have employment websites then? I cannot just hop into a taxi and find the nearest buisness, and say, "I'm here to apply for a job." Or can I do that? They probably wouldn't even let me through the front door. A girl that wants to work, who'd ever think that could be possible. Now if I could just get my CV out there, circulating that would be great. I really don't know what to do with my life anymore. I watch people move on, and I just stay right were I am. I say what I think and only one person listens. I pray to God, but to be honest it seems as if all I do is repeat myself, and not get any anwsers. I would like some answers, a sign that something is going right in my life. OF course I know that Allah see's all, and hear's all, and surely he hears my prayers, I have no doubt about that. I just wish I could get some kind of sign, other than a dream that is. I want something real. Some real news. Some Good news.
In other news, it's taking me ages to read the Biography of the prophet, but I plan on finishing it today inshallah.

Questions

I don't understand how Christians can follow a book that's been changed so many times. Plus I don't understand how they think that Jesus as the son of god. Think of it for a second, if Jesus had been the son of god, would he need to pray his own father? Think about the lord's prayer, that you christians say, does it have any mention of Christ, Jesus, being together with god? for example he says, "Thy kingdom come," he does not say, "Our kingdom come." had he been together with God he would have said the latter. Another thing,where in the whole bible does Jesus say, I am god worship me, yet you still have christians, praying to Jesus, and walking around telling people that Jesuse is thier savoir. Even the Rock stars, and the Hip Hop artist, thank Jesus for all what they have. I mean you people, beleive a man was cruicified on the cross for your sins, if that's true, than why then is every baby born with sin? I've always wondered how any person can beleive that God the creator would have a son? it just doesn't make any sense to me whatsoever. So if any Christians read this blog, or happen to stumble upon this post I would like some exlainations. thank you.

on my mind.

I like listening to Hamza Yusif's lectures. I also like listening to Abdurahman Green, and I found a new one, well he's not actually new to the buisness, however it's the first time I've heard of him, Seraj Wahaj, I've only found very short indroductory clips of his lectures, I want to find some of his full lectures inshallah. These are a few of the Westren lecturers that I've been listening too, these past three days. I watched two videos of another American, I don't remember his name though, or even if his name was mentioned.
Abduraman's entry into islam was very interesting.

Went to the store.

I went to Safe Way tonight and got some things. I looked for special K. but they didn't have any. They had one call fitness, but I wasn't interested in that. So I got some cerael bars instead, some sugar, and corn syrup and eggs, for something that my sister wants to make. I didn't get any candy except for Moltesers for my sister. Than for supper I got some rice and meat for everyone. Alhumdullah, I was able to get everything under a certain amount of money. A lot less money than I'd thougt it'd take.