Went to the Steak house yesterday for lunch, ordered some cheese cake its not something I do all the time, and I burned most of the calories----walking around the mall, we only sat once---during the whole three hours we were there.

my opinion

Whenever I read the best little girl in the world. I feel like I just want to lose weight.I feel that I don't want to eat. Especially if I've gone for hours without eating, and I've worked out. I hate eating after I work out, because I'm afraid that I'm going to be ruining everything that I did before I ate. Then I realized if I eat pure foods then I don't have to worry about that. No more pasta for me----or any other white starch. My body cannot handle white starches----and besides that---they're not good for you anyway. Fruits and vegetables all the way. Speaking of which I'm not going to be making any cream based soups like I'd been planning---to save time---I'll get the packet soups---which are broth based.

imagine a world without blood and guns. (has nothing to do wih post)

I spent the majority of my day sleeping yesterday---due to the awful stomache I had. I still have a slight stomache right now, but it's not as bad as it was before. Either way I still can't have anything to eat. However I have the worse sweet tooth ever---I'm going to have my husband get me some doughnuts inshallah----I haven't had any sense March. Last night-yesterday I had a dream that I was eating cookies and candy. Anyway, hopefully I'll either call or text.

country chic

country chic by princessess featuring white heels

TopShop green halter dress
$76 - topshop.com

White heels
4.99 GBP - dressrail.com

Gucci leather clutch
$2,400 - net-a-porter.com

Heart jewelry
6 GBP - hannahzakari.co.uk

Juicy Couture heart jewelry
$148 - nordstrom.com

Melissa Odabash white party hat
150 EUR - stylebop.com

FLIRT! BIG FLIRT Thickening Mascara
$12 - kohls.com

Nothing much is going on lately. I was out of water---the water was cut off in the apartment for over twenty four hours and now its back on again---so I can finally shower and wash my face, and brush my teeth---you know all the wonderful things a person can do when they have running water. My stomache's been feeling queezy these past few days, so I haven't been eating that much, mostly just a dish of food late at night, and then, I don't have anything else to eat during the day. Today however I think I'll have some cucumbers and dates later, with lemon water. My eating habits are weird to say the least. I'm not very confident when it comes to my cooking, so if I'm going to cook for my husband it has to be from a cooking book and I've got to get all the ingridents or their equal or I won't be making the dish, I got an arabic cook book a while ago, I've tried two recipes in the book, and I'm going to try a third one---a cream of broccoli soup, it seems simple enough for me to make. I usually spend the entire day sleeping, because I get so tired from not eating, but then if I do eat it worsens my queezy stomach---so today I think---no----I know I'll just have tea----throughout the day---to keep me awake. Because I need to stay awake without food---till at least eleven at night---or eight--sense I don't have television anymore----and I can basically watch my DVDs whenever I like---as long as I get my prayers in on time.

Wondering

I wonder why women think that it's okay for everyone else to get a second and third wife--or even a fourth wife, but it's never okay for them. I don't get that at all. And I don't get women who stop talking with someone just because they're the second wife. I hate that alot of second wifes are accused of being husband snatchers----which may be true in some cases, but its not the general rule. Alot of women become second wifes because it was meant for them to be second wifes. A second wife in islam isn't like a mistress, were a mistress gets no rights whatsoever--a second wife---gets the same set of rights as the first wife.

I shall not follow any diet that tells me not to eat fruit. Like the Dunkan diet for example. This one girl on youtube was talking about how she needed to get in shape---she's already very skinny--- it didn't bother me that she thougt she needed to get in shape---what bothered me--or rather concerned me when she mentioned that she was eating too many grapes. I don't think that anyone can eat too many grapes. Or fruit for that matter. Fruit doesn't make you fat or out of shape----junk food makes you fat, foods filled with unnatural sugars and additives make you fat---to many white carbs make you fat. It's stupid to take fruit out of ones diet in order to lose weight. Because fruit is a fat burner---it helps you to lose weight, and keep your skin, looking young and healthy.

I finally got to go to see my friend yesterday. I would have liked to have gone earlier and stayed a while longer. However I'm happy that I finally got to go. And I finally got the pizza that I've been craving for. It's only a once and a month type of thing, so it should be fine. I hate diet books that tell you not to eat fruit? What! I'll think, fruit has natural sugars that are good for you. I know too much of a good thing can be bad, but to completely eliminate it from ones diet, I think that's going over board. I went on the treadmill, I spilt it up into sections---first for twenty minutes, and then I went back on, for fifteen minutes, then I took a short break and went on for another fifteen minutes, which make it a total of fifty minute---next time I'll go on, for thirty minutes take a break and go back on for another thirty minutes---starting from Friday--God Willing.

A mixture of things.

First I would like to thank everyone that has decided to follow my blog. I know that five followers is a small number, however I am very greatful to have you all as follwers of my blog. So thank you all again. For taking out the time and reading about my life. I would also like to mention that I love reading all of your blogs.
It's funny how we somtimes feel more comfortable writing about our lives than we do talking about them. At least that's the case for me. It used to be that I had to tell everyone I knew what was going on in my life, now I just prefer to write about it in my blogs, if they happen upon it, than they do, and if they don't, well then they don't. At times I find it difficult to express the way I'm feeling to other people. For the most part, because I'm afraid, that it will make them feel bad, and if they feel bad then I feel guilty, and so I just keep it all bottled up inside----and then I write about it. I realize now that is wrong, I should tell people how I'm feeling how else are they suppose to help me if I keep everything all bottled up inside. Like for example if I feel that I don't like to be alone all the time---I should speak up and say something, instead of not saying anything, if I feel angry or disapointed about something I should say so.After all if everyone else has the right to be state what they are angry about than so do I.

I sent another email to the SAMBA bank and I still haven't gotten any reply back. My brother hasn't called or email, and the American Embassy hasn't written back either. I wish I knew what that letter---or email said. I think I am going to have to go to the bank to sort this whole ordeal out myself. I don't want to call cause I probably won't get any anwser, or if I do get an anwser, they'll probably say, "Go to your nearest branch."