Dream, new look

This morning I decided to do something different, I put on eye shawdow. I usually, only cover my lashes with mascara, and then, sometimes I like to line my eyes with black kohl eyeliner. I don't do that so much. though I need to practice applying liquid liner. Sense I got a liquid eyeliner, a while ago, I've only used it a few times. And those few times, I had a difficult time with application. As they say practice makes perfect, or as close to perfect as I can get. I also put on some lipstick, I love the nieva lipstick, I have this really lovely pink color that I haven't used in a while, and so I thought that would be a lovely change. I used a brown and taupe eyeshadow palate. I also styled my hair in a different way, which I thought matched with my make up choice. I know, you all may be thinking, a light pink lipstick, and brown eyeshadow, but it looked really nice, and was more like a brown smoking eye, and I think brown and pink can go together, depending on the tones of each color. Anyway, I really liked the outcome. I have this dress that I really like, but I can't wear it yet, because I don't like how it looks on me. So I've got some pounds, inches I need to shred, before I will feel comfortable wearing that dress. The hardest thing for me to do these days, is find something to wear. Sometimes I literally feel like starving myself. But then I wonder what I would do with the rotting food. If I could go out and throw it myself, I wouldn't bother. But there's more to it then that. I know logically that if I starve I won't have the energy to workout. my body, will go into starvation mode, and I'll have to work extra hard, to burn what little calories I do take it, because, my body will turn it into fat. So I have got to be sensible about this whole thing. At this point in my life, I don't want to think about starting a child. Though, it's always in the back of my mind. And my dream of a few days ago didn't help matters either.