Random Thursday2

Today is the second day of the Holly Month. I don't know what series are playing on the various channels, except for a few, like Bab Al7ara, The Door of the neigborhood. it's literally a huge door. if you watch the series you'll understand. I know this cause I watched the previous four seasons. However this Season I won't be watching it. Nor will I be watching any of the other series, like Tash Ma Tash 17, or the one with Hyat alfahad, on MBC, or that eygption series,I want to get married, which started from a blog, which was turned into a book and later published, so the series is based off a book. I've been watching a lot of youtube video's lately. I don't consider youtube television, unless I choose to watch a television program, but today I just plan on watching, video's on make up, and skin care, and hair care. if I can find video's on how to shape eyebrows the right way, that would be great. So far I've kept up with my goal. This will be my first Ramadan with no television. Admittly I turned it on yesterday---before last night, because I wanted to see if they were praying taraweeh which they were. And then I turned it off right after that. I'm doing a lot of spritual things this month, but I don't feel as if I'm doing anything productive, aside from writing. My idea of productive, is to go out there and work, and get a monthly pay check. When I get that, then I will know that I'm being productive. At the moment I don't feel productive. I've done all I can think to get a job, as much as I can online. My dad's right though, people don' care about emails about jobs, they want people to go to them. if that's the case then why do they have employment websites then? I cannot just hop into a taxi and find the nearest buisness, and say, "I'm here to apply for a job." Or can I do that? They probably wouldn't even let me through the front door. A girl that wants to work, who'd ever think that could be possible. Now if I could just get my CV out there, circulating that would be great. I really don't know what to do with my life anymore. I watch people move on, and I just stay right were I am. I say what I think and only one person listens. I pray to God, but to be honest it seems as if all I do is repeat myself, and not get any anwsers. I would like some answers, a sign that something is going right in my life. OF course I know that Allah see's all, and hear's all, and surely he hears my prayers, I have no doubt about that. I just wish I could get some kind of sign, other than a dream that is. I want something real. Some real news. Some Good news.
In other news, it's taking me ages to read the Biography of the prophet, but I plan on finishing it today inshallah.