I've been looking for information online. Which sometimes isn't a easy thing. Because you'll enter one thing in the search engine, and they'll give a page full of things that aren't even related to what you typed in the first place. So now my only option is to think of different ways of putting it, and my other option would be going directly to the source. and inshallah when Allah sees that I'm activily doing something to get out of the situation I'm currently in, he'll help me all the more. Inshallah I really hope so.